Chapter nine

Friday had finally arrived and I already knew Duce was coming over. I was looking forward to it because I felt like we needed to talk. I have questions and I'm sure he already knows that. Downstairs I sit in the living room after breakfast as my grandparents and I watch the news. Half of the time I don't pay attention but this morning it seems like it's a lot going on. "Now you see why I'm so protective of you. A lot of crazy stuff is happening and I'll be damned if I let something happen to you. After I lost your father I can't help but to be on high alert about you. I know you think we don't trust you we do. It's the things we've been through since you've been born it's been a lot. You want to know why I told your uncle Duce to look after you? We feel like he can teach you things we cannot. We're old Cain and not up to date on what it is your generation do. I love you and want you to have all the support you need." My Gma Ava said in tears. A tear rolled down my face just sitting there seeing how worried I make her. It makes sense but it's things I feel are still being hidden from me. My world felt like one big ass twisted lie. I've been fighting my thoughts and demons since I was thirteen. Then my pops spoke. "I know it's tough for you to know that your dad is dead. It's a tragedy and I hate it's happened to you. Just make good choices and be a better man, father, whatever you want to be. You can do it whatever it is just don't lose yourself. You hear us talk to you over and over again. It may feel like we're preaching but it's only for the betterment of you." I stood up still in tears and hugged them both. I really don't know what made us go into an emotional state like that but I needed to hear that. An hour later Duce was at the door ringing the doorbell. Walking outside I really needed the air. Duce looked at me in confusion and with concern. "Yo you good?" He asked looking at me. "Yeah I'm straight don't worry about it." I said. "That's not gone help." He said. "What you talking about?" I asked him. "Holding shit in. Trust me it does you no good." He said sincerely. "That shit sound good but who the fuck gone help me with my problems if I do? Obviously don't nobody care about how I feel. Everybody want to just tell me bullshit and sugarcoat shit. Like I don't deserve an explanation on why my life like this. This some bitch shit and I hate being in my feelings. Folks just don't need to talk to me if they not gone keep it real." I said pissed off and in my feelings about everything. "Wow bruh yeah I think it's time." Duce said throwing me off. "What you mean it's time?" I asked him as he looked nervous as he shook his head. "Get in the car we can't talk right here." He said. We both got in the car and pulled off. At the park we got out and sat at the table. It was hot and I was getting knots in my stomach. Was I really ready for whatever it was he had to say? "Listen man I have to let you know some real shit my dude. The last time I seen your mom she was in town to see you. I saw her at the gas station. Off top I already knew who she was. Your dad and I grew up from the same neighborhood. I was real close to your folks they look at me like family. On some real shit your pops and your mom was untouchable together. Like on some Bonnie and Clyde type shit. You remind me of him closed off and reserved. Picking and choosing who knows what. Nothing wrong with it though. When it came to your mom he was protective of her. From all the shit he did in his past to have peace. Shit crazy he wouldn't even let me meet her and I was closer to him than anybody. I wasn't tripping because like I said I understood. If you ever wondered about them I'm here to tell you your parents wanted you man. Your mother loved you I know that for a fact. Your father always wanted kids and I bet he looking down on you right now like damn I made that. Might even be jealous of how you look more like him than he do. It's wild by the way because your a splitting image of him real shit. That's probably why Giovanni was looking at you all crazy and shit." He said as he threw me off with that last statement. "Wait who the fuck is Giovanni?" I asked him. "Remember the nigga from the warehouse?" He asked. "The one who was asking me who I was and shit?" I asked. "Yeah him, honestly I had you come with me so you could see the man whose behind your dad's death and probably your moms disappearance." Duce said. Damn that was a lot to process. To think I was standing in front of the man behind my madness. "That's a lot of speculation you sure?" I asked trying to get confirmation. "Cain it's a lot. I just dropped some huge bombs on you. I told you I was your dads right hand man. He was private and I know how to move. Nobody knew your pops worked with Giovanni but me. He used to tell me he thought the nigga was sketchy and I believed him the man dirty and he don't play fair. When your mom came in the picture he got out. After that shit was over with." He explained. I'm standing there thinking wow.