Breaking voice

#Jan's pov #

Heartless person ever...

I couldn't even look in the eye

And I hate when my anger turns to tears.

The broken wooden pieces scattered everywhere in the room .

My body is about to give up but the anger inside me couldn't just do it , it was burning .

I pushed the door open and ran out to the street , I grasp for air , my legs was dragging me , couldn't even think about anything , just want to run

'It feels so good '

A few minutes later , I was stopped at the cliff of a mountain by someone and pulled me back and hugged me , I struggle to get out of the grip

can't breath .

one thought is that I don't want air to live ,the other one I just want to make it to tomorrow.

"You crazy ?, are you out off your mind or what ? "

I wriggle again and again but his grip grew strong than few minutes before .

"Hey hey hey calm down , its ok , its ok , breath..just breath ''

Something felt strange , without even realising I gave up , my knees failed me , We both knelt on the damp grass but still he didn't release his hands around me until my breathing was normal .

I turned around when the grip loosen around me.

"Who are yo-... Aaah

My head..."

Paining head.

Sore body .

Burning brusies .

I felt every inch of it.

And tossing and turing in some soft thick material.

Im still in bed ? , at 11:45 in the Morning??? Shit. The flowers!, The wedding orders !!

I got up frustrated knowing that I saw the same nightmare again .

The same fucking nightmare

Every damn time .

The breaking voices of wooden peices scattering is ringing in my ears and loosing my balance knocking down the things on the table .

"Sweetie you awak-

Yah, you're still in hangover .

Here ..hold on ..''

All of sudden I felt someone grabbed my arms and led me to the bed

"Flowers, the..the.. Orders .. I...'' my words was still stuttering

"Shhh i know i know .. We'll take care of it ... just rest now "

I drifted to a deep slumber as soon as a hand patting my head . I couldn't even recognize the voice nor the person.

# end of Jan's pov #

# Chang's pov #

At JJ labels company building

"Wtf!!!"

Chang shouted

''This is the 20th time Im waking you up ,next I will throw you out of the window , remember we are on 13th floor now ''Jong hyung shouted back

'' 5 more minutes'' , I curled up in the couch .

Jong hyung frowned and left the room.

The song track in the studio is still playing and Jong hyung is annoyed and so done with me . Thank god they didn't kill me of what I have done that I have put myself in danger, more than that l was scared to face them at the apartment today morning .

And if the manager and CEO Knows it , Im thousand times so done .

After 5 minutes hyung started yanking my arm

''Wake wake wake wake , we don't have enough time , we are supposed to submit this track today .Only your part of the song is left to sing. Here drink this coffee '' hyung handed me the cup and sat beside me as I pushed myself on sit up position and took a few sips of the coffee still my lids are heavy.

30 minutes of sleep, mom's gonna kill me

'' still can't open your eyes after your 8th coffee ?" Jong hyung asked

'' yeah , but Im good now '' I said , pretend not to be weak , I can taste the extra caffeine this time

'' I don't need you to sleep to throw you out off the window , last night incident was enough for me '' Hyung confirmed in a sarcastic tone .

"Oh really? ", I smirked

'' Forget it , its better not to remind my rage last night ''

I smiled looking down at my empty cup

'' I better make Tae to shift to another apparment , you both together in one room are crazy dangerous''

'' In your dreams , nothing can't break our bro bond '' I stated

'' I know ''Hyung said smiling

'' Anyway when's the album photo shoot ?"

I asked , can't hold my curiosity and excitement.

''Mmm lets see.... After this song track we have one more track to finish together and MJ is on it , then after that we will be doing photo shoot. As soon the songs are complete soon the photo shoot starts '' hyung verified

That's all I want to hear , all my serotonin level raised up , its the only time I get my next chance.

'' Then lets finish both the songs today itself '' I stood up in a hurry but Jong hyung pulled be back to my seat .

'' wait wait wait , let me ask you something, are you planning anything for our photo shoot ?''

Now he is curious

'' Obviously, Im the incharge of the photo shoot '' I said

'' oh no '' he exclaimed

'' what !?"

'' are you ..!?"

" if you guess it , yes im gonna do it ''

''But .. That's..''

'' no butts'' I stood up ignoring whatever comments he wants to say next , I entered into tracking room where my headphones, mic and my lyric sheet welcomed me .

Hyung walk over to the producers chair and sat on it smiling on me over the glassed frame between us , he then turned on the tracking room speaker on and said

'' I was going to say that's genius ''

I let my breath out , even though I almost put my whole group in danger last night deep down they really want to support me in it but still they limit it for me and Jan for our safety.

I smiled and put my headphone close to my ears , cleared my throat

I did some breathing technique to clam my mind .

Don't break your voice this time Chang

''Ok , lets finish all our tracks today ''

Jong hyung winked at me across the glass frame.

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