Chapter 43

  God, I feel amazing; why can’t I always feel like this?

  “No! Don’t want to go to bed.” I sound petulant like a child and start struggling. If I go to bed, I’ll stop feeling this way. I may lose this warm feeling and blank-mind euphoria; I may start fixating on shitty fathers who abandon their kids in infancy, pricks who only see dollar signs instead of the damage they have caused.

  “Emma, hold still,” he fusses, struggling to hold me.

  “No. Nope, nope.” I shake my head, and before he drops me, he finally stops and stands my writhing body on my own bare feet outside my door. But upright isn’t good; it really disorients me as everything sways.

  I giggle, then have the overwhelming urge to shush him, which I do by dramatically placing my finger on my lips.

  He talks too much.