Chapter 124

  I get bogged down with work and end up with the headache from hell before heading home. It’s been a stressful first day back, and now, more than ever, I’m hating his absence. We’re a team; we work on all this crap together, and we do it well. I’ve never had to single-handedly take over, and I don’t like it anymore. I’m angry at him for making me do this, angry at the way my emotions are up and down, and I can’t stick on hating him or missing him.

  I know it’s part of my job, and I know I’m capable, but I detest it. I know more about the Carrero empire than I could have ever imagined; I’ve so many staff at my fingertips it’s terrifying. I converse with lawyers, security, HR, and other crazily-titled employees constantly, and sometimes I wonder how my head hasn’t self-imploded. I’m only twenty-six, and to have so much resting on my shoulders at this age is a huge achievement. I know I’m good at what I do, but still …