Chapter 154

  Finally, after a brief reflective silence, Sarah cuts in.

  “Your mom keeps leaving messages on the answering machine. She knows you’re never here, and I know she has your cell number, so I guess she’s not actually trying to contact you directly.” She pauses, hesitant for a second. “I spoke to her briefly. She’s doing well; her nurse is taking care of her.” She smiles at me gently. Sarah texted me all this before and hadn’t been surprised at my non-responses to her messages. I remain impassive, making it clear my feelings have not changed.

  “Did she mention her new boyfriend?” I say through gritted teeth and slide my mug onto the table, too full of so many hot drinks, with nausea rising. Sarah raises an eyebrow, then lets my comment pass. I haven’t told her about Ray, about what happened in Chicago. I will, I promise myself, tell Sarah everything, just not right now. This is all new to me, sharing … talking.