Chapter 466

  It’s not him, it’s not who I have always relied on him being. My strong, emotionally calm rock. I hate that I have made him cry, hate seeing tears running down that flawless face. I don’t want to see him cry.

  “Stop it.” I plead, trying to turn away from him, pushing his hands down as he keeps returning to hold me again. He’s not giving up, clinging to me, and making it clear he won’t back down or walk away. He has that stubborn Carrero air about him and it’s only tearing down my defenses. Reminding me of the boy who dragged me out of myself so many years ago, when everyone else had given up trying to breakthrough.

  “Tell me that you no longer feel anything for me, and I’ll walk away, Sophs. I’ll leave you alone knowing that you no longer see me that way. That I really did lose you.” He urges me, heart on his sleeve and voice raw and I want to tell him I don’t give a shit anymore, that I don’t love him, but I can’t.