Chapter 489

  At first, I understood, I mean her dad is only getting worse and they don’t think he has much time left; but now weeks in, and more than a dozen of these episodes, I am losing my temper. I catch a glimpse of him pulling his phone towards him and sighing. I see that moment of self-doubt, where he is trying to choose whether to answer or not and I can already tell, he will. To me it says it all. Saying nothing, I get up from the couch fast and storm over to the kitchen to look for food. If I am out of direct sight, he might not see me hating on him and making death motions with kitchen utensils behind his back.

  Opening the refrigerator and pulling out the chocolate and Pepsi he keeps for me, despite claiming he never would, and then rummaging for the box of snacks he dutifully keeps in the cupboard. I put some popcorn in the microwave and try to zone out as I hear his voice on the one-sided telephone call.