Chapter 500

  A horrible, cruel, evil, impulsive girl who could physically hurt him that way, injure my protector, my soul and reason for living. I start sobbing harder and bury my face in my knees brokenly. Unable to look at him, so ashamed of this little bitch who lives inside of me eternally, her need to always lash out and hurt people, even when they try to love her.

  “Sophie, let me look. Let me see. I won’t touch you, just let me see.” His soft voice, trembling badly, is over the top of me now, pleading, begging, his body heat caging me in. He moves in around me, trying to angle in to look at me with his hands on the floor so he doesn’t physically touch me and yet also trying to give me space and not cross the barrier I have placed around myself. I flicker my eyes up, heart breaking and needing more than ever to feel, back in his arms where dirty awful things don’t happen to me, where I know he won’t let anything bad happen to me.