Chapter 569

  My old insecurities and pangs of jealousy are creeping out. And I know it’s because of how often we are apart. I don’t feel so self-assured and able to take on the world anymore, like I’m holding my breath and waiting for the next step and this temporary phase will be over.

  I haven’t seen my family in months, barely able to leave, even on weekends and they don’t really come here often either. My parents have jobs and my siblings have families. Emma brought the kids out with Jake a few months back, but they hated the long flights and it wasn’t fair on such young kids. They stayed a week and had to go home with three very grumpy children who did not fancy another eight-hour flight.