Chapter 611

  It takes minutes and I am sure she is deliberating taking an age just to piss me off as I stare blankly at our bedroom wall. I hate that he is so far away, but I need to get this over and done with. Saying it aloud, saying the words might make it more real and I might feel something more than this aching gap that is robbing me of all energy and life.

  “Hello… Sophs?” Arrick comes on the line, sounding harassed and I close my eyes at the almost normal tone of his voice. He still has a voice that makes everything feel better. Like coming home to a warm hug. Whether he knows it or not, right now this is what I need more than air.

  “I’m sorry I… I had to call.” I sound way too calm, unemotional and sort of strange. Like I’m not really here at all.