"For most of his life E.J tries to hide behind drawn curtains, to afraid that the world will find out about his abnormal situation. The one where he needs to please his stepfather sexually every night behind the same drawn curtains
When E.J meets Christopher he wishes that he could be whole for him and be in his arms as a pure boy again, be he know that is impossible. Add in E.J's stepfather becoming jealous of Christopher and E.J feeling he will never be good enough to be in a relationship and E.J needs to choose between killing his stepfather to be with Christopher or committing suicide to get out of this situation once and for all.
WARNING: This story may contain adult themes or sexual abuse. Do not read if this affects you in any way. This story however is based on things that do happen in real life. If you are being sexually abused, please talk about it and tell someone that can help you. 
This story has a rating of 18. If you are not 18 please refrain from reading since this story contains scenes of sexual nature as well as strong language."

Behind Drawn Curtains 1-2

　　I walk out of the camping store and put my hand up in the still freezing air.


　　“At least it’s not raining anymore,” I whisper to myself, wondering if E.J. is already making arrangements to go back home.


　　I can’t help replaying the fight we had over and over in my head. I feel guilty for what I have said. I don’t know what came over me. I didn’t mean any of it, but maybe it’s good that I have said all that.


　　I stick up my hand once more and when no taxi stops I sit down on the curb, opening my bag and pulling out the list.


　　I slowly run my fingers over number ten. The end. The end of everything. The end of me.


　　“I’m glad you won’t be there to see it,” I whisper into the paper as if it’s a portal E.J. can hear me through.


Chapter 44