chapter 1

I don't realize how much I love her until she was standing there

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Present pov

All I could feel on my tender , fragile skin was freezing cold air, the sound of silence around me was chilling and frighting in every possible way.

Holding the paper tightly. I was staring blankly towards the building.The building that is used to my safe point my heaven my everything but now that place is just a misery from which I want to run . By gathering my all courage. I start picking my steps towards building. Entering the elevator pressing the 5 button and making myself secure at the corner . The tears that are ready to fall by just imagining from where things got wrong before they fall I wiped them harshly .

Telling my self that this is all what I deserve by stabbing all my love ones back loving someone who doesn't deserve my love,care ,my soul my body who even doesn't deserve my love  . I'm the cause for all what happened. How  can I deceive misery .

Hearing the beep sound indicating I have just reached 5 floor making my self presentable ,wiping my eyes last time taking deep breath ; I just put my self out of the elevator.But the memory that I shared with the man who is supposed to be  all mine are. who is my obsession what one is now  suffocating me . Suffocating me to my  dead .

Taking my frail body out of the elevator. I have just taken few steps . My breath starting to become heavy . As I lost my balance and fell on my knees  putting my both hands on the floor . Rising one hand to clutch my left side of shirt and started to pat my heart little bit hardly due to lack to oxygen flow in my body . Every moment is to much for me .

I started to suffer from lost of breath the memory's ,the love I share with the one who is responsible for all this is starting to hunt me after staying helpless on the floor about 5 mints.

Holding back the tears that wet the eyes as they are not willing to let me settle . Gathering all my hates love, revenge, emotions and telling my self I will get my revenge what they have done to me and my love's one ....I will just kill them by my bare hands . After spruce my self and wiping the tears off I clutching the paper in my hand and start moving toward my destination.

A/n

Story line of the pessimistic is same as my other pessimistic book but this book contain bl , MP, b×b touch so I change some character in this book accordingly to need as no one is reading other book so I am sure no one will no the difference between these two books .

Thanks for your reading this book❤️