Hot Spring Conflict

It's rather confusing for me, what exactly do I feel to her? Is it lust or love?

What exactly do I want from her?

I question myself multiple times, if I love her or if I just desire her. Mei is a close friend of mine who I met during my highschool years. We had a lot of common hobbies or dislikes and likes, which made it easier for us to get along. We trust each other and at some point, I grew to love her romanitcally.

I was unsure.

It felt like my mind was playing tricks with me that I can't even hear my own heart. What do I want? What does she want? Will she love me too?

Afraid I might ruin our friendship, breaking the bond and making it even hard for me to fix it. My mind tells me I shouldn't confess yet my heart longs for her.

Mei saw my dark expression, I couldn't tell her exactly my problems even though we were so close. Despite the trust that was built brick by brick, I couldn't confront her about my own feelings. I was a coward.

Despite that, Mei planned something for us on our weekend.

A two day, one night in a hotel hot spring. Mei managed to win it off by chance and wanted to ask me out. She wanted to use this chance to relax and heal our worries away.

In the morning, a knock was heard from the entrance of my apartment. I checked only to see a smiling Mei with a big duffel bag beside her.

"Hey! Did you pack yet?"

"I did, but I haven't gotten ready yet to leave. Come inside and have some coffee or tea if you'd like"

I offered, stepping aside for her to enter gleefully.

She sat down on the comfy soft couch, laying without a care. She looked into my eyes as if I was the only thing she needed to stare at. I noticed of course but I averted my eyes in embarrassment. Deciding to just hurry up and take a shower. I never expected anything from anyone, not from her, not from me either.

Or so I thought.

Mei walked into the shower, her hands wrapping around me. Her bare chest touching my back, feeling such softness while also being firm.

"Don't say anything"

She said, not even facing me as she hugged me from behind. However I dislike it, I'm hesitating again and ruining the chance when Mei had already initiated.

Regardless, I turned around and caressed her cheeks. Leaning closer and letting out lips touch, the water from the shower hitting us while I deepened the kiss.

"I want this..."

I said with such soft tone, making sure that I kissed her by choice and not by force.

Her eyes looked into mine and I could tell that she, as well was holding back for our sake, for the sake of our refined friendship.

But we wanted more than this. She leaned closer, making the kiss more passionate. Even our tounges touched, twirling as I held her close and touching her bare ass even caressing it.

The make out made my cock hard that it touched her bare pussy, the tip rubbing on her entrance. I didn't want to rush things, I wanted to savor her taste, something to stay on my memory until the end of my life. My hands reached her perky breasts, giving it a firm squeeze while my fingers worked up to her hard nipples.

She let out a soft yet erotic moan as I teased her nipples. That didn't stop me from moving my hips either, rubbing my cock onto her entrance.

Her thighs squeezing my cock while I pinched her. My lips touched her neck, living traces of soft kisses. She looked back at me with such desire, I couldn't resist anymore.

I wanted to devour her so badly! FUCK!

She pushed me by the wall gently, the water from the shower kept hitting us, sliding throught our body, just like her hands. She kept caressing my body, while her eyes kept staring into mine. She never looked away while caressing me with gentle and care.

She reached for my cock and slowly touched the tip with the intention of teasing my weakspot. Her fingers rubbing the head while kissing my neck with vigor, as if to mark me as hers.

Her hands reached for the shaft, rubbing it at a normal pace.

While she teased my erected cock, she gave me a small smile. Making it harder for me to hold it in, I wanted to burst my load already but she kept stopping the moment she saw the hint of me being close.

When she let go of my cock, she kneeled down, while my cock was already hitting her cheek. She stared at my cock with lust that you could percieve it as if she was look at an additctive drug.

She started kissing the tip until to the glans and shaft.

Without hesitation, she gobbled my cock while placing her hand on waist. She started bobbing her head with a normal pace, accelerating bit by bit. She stared into me while sucking me off.

Her lips giving my shaft wonders, while her tongue swirled around the tip of my cock making me lose it.

"I'm close...!" I said, warning her from the incoming load.

Yet, she hugged me firml, taking my cock deeper from her throat and even making her gag that her eyes almost turned white. The tightness of her throat made me release all of my pent up frustration, staining her throat white.

She coughed while trying to swallow my cum, she licked her lips.

This woman....

At the bus stop, we were already entering the bus that was heading to our destination since the plan was to go and relax at a hot spring. The inn was nearby the montain area, making the trip worth while. We were seated by the back and bit secluded since there weren't much passengers.

Mei was by the window side, staring into the nature, the look on her face tells me she was bored. Since then we haven't had a proper conversation, it was probably too awkward to even start one after we just had a werid intimate situation in the showers.

However, what the fuck? Shouldn't we figure out what the hell happened and why we just happened to even do such thing when we aren't dating? Does she like me? Am I just a subject for carnal desires?? I have more questions than answers and this is pissing me off.

I went and grabbed her chin and kissed her lips, causing Mei by surprise but before she could even respond and react. I deepened the kiss, inserting my tongue making her squirm between each kisses.

Taking advantage of the situation, I put my hand under her skirt. Rubbing her pussy with my fingers despite still wearing her panties.

"W-wait" She demanded.

I refused, backing away as I looked into her eyes while I put her panties aside and started puting one finger inside her entrance. Rubbing the inside of her walls, her flesh clenchin on every movement on my finger, I kept adding and rubbed the upperpart of her flesh.

She moaned, gasping for air while trying to muffle her noise. I pulled my fingers out, showing her how wet she was. Infront of her, I licked my soaked fingers while making her watch how much I wanted to eat her. She held onto me, making such desperate cute face.

"Don't worry, I wouldn't leave you unsatisfied" I whispered.

I put two fingers inside her again while my palm rubbed her clit. Moved my palm at the same time used my fingers to rub the upper part of her walls. She shivered from the pleasure, making her orgasm while riding the bus.

it was weird yet exciting experience.

When we arrived at the inn, we placed our stuff at our booked room, we shared the room while having two futons by the side. We stood together and close, her face was red while also felt nervous considering I just did something bad.

"Shall we....go to the hotspring?" she asked.

"Yeah, its already nightfall....why not warm up....for a bit?" I said.

As we got to the hotspring, I dipped by the water, it was relaxing and the open space made it even better. Despite being relaxed in such place, I still couldn't stop thinking about Mei and our "situatuion" I still haven't asked or understnad with how our relationship works.

Is she pursing a romantic relationship?

Does she just want me to be her friend with benefits?

While relaxing, I suddenly heard strange moans from the other side, to Mei's side. I got out of the water and saw a small hole by the wall that was used to divided the other side with this one. Peeking through the hole, I saw something horrible. I saw Mei being held by two men, I couldn't tell much but I could tell they were assulting her. Touching her form different areas of her body.

it made my blood boil and yet I questioned myself.

Why does it matter? It's not like I'm dating her?

Maybe she wanted this considering she wasn't fighting back.

Does it matter? It's not like she cares?

Questions kept generating and making me stop thinking about anything else. Yet my heart hurts from seeing her being held by someone that isn't me. I quickly ran to the otherside and started jumping on the two guys that was harassing Mei. Punching and kicking without a care, taking Mei away and heading back to their room. She was unconsious the whole time, it could be that she stayed by the heat for too long.

I sighed. My mind questioned everything yet my actions followed my heart. I felt like not doing anything was going to be my regret. I hated the sight, I love her and I couldn't bear to never do anything.

In the end, I let my negative thoughts away and followed my heart.