Prologue

Magdalene's POV

I'm at the top of the hills, enjoying the sunset view. This sky never fails to mesmerized me, it is beautiful and awakening as it is. I love sunset, it represent a rest, that from a long tiring day, we need a break. It's like saying to me,"Hey, I'm setting down that's enough take a break, you deserve to rest."

"Mommy, what are you looking at?" he asked when he's done eating his cupcake.

"Mommy is looking at sunset." and I point it.

"But I'm sunset?" he said which makes me laugh.

Sunset is my child, he's the best thing that happened to me. If he wouldn't here probably I'll go insane, he save me from my drowning of emptiness.

"That is sunset and you are sunset but both of you makes mommy rest." I said and pinch his cheek.

"I don't understand mommy." he said.

"It only means mommy loves you." I explained.

"Sunset loves you mommy!" he said and continue playing.

There were nights that I still cry, still wondering why things happened that way? Still asking the same questions about my sorrows all over again.

Despite of all, I learned to become invulnerable somehow I developed little love and compassion for myself. Love and compassion that I'm looking and begging for others, thinking that they are worth it.

My therapist advice, I need to forgive people whom I think hurt me even though they are not asking for my forgiveness but at the back of my mind, do they deserve my mercy? Forgiveness is part of healing, If I hold grudge I won't completely heal but how about my pain? Don't I deserve to heard sorry from them? That's it. I need to forgive them and just move on, not minding how it destroyed me. I guess, I will never be ready forgiving people who aren't even sorry for what they done.

"Sunset let's go! It's getting dark." I said, we need to go home now. It's not good to stay late, I will prepare food for our dinner.

I really enjoy the province life, away from the noise of City. I imagine how Sunset grow up here, I will make sure that he get all the support and love. I will raised him to be good man not hurting anyone especially vulnerable woman.

Once we got home I prepared for our dinner and I let him watch cartoons. After I've done preparing I went to our living to him.

"My, cars oh! want cars!" he's pointing to the tv, that cars is produced by his father's company.

"That's enough let's eat, cars isn't good for you." so he pouted.

While we were eating, my phone ring so I answer it, It's my secretary.

"Hello, Ma'am I just want to remind you for your flight tomorrow. Everything is settled, please check your email." she said and I hung up.

I need to go on City for a week to attend a very important business seminar, it will be 3-days seminar and after that we will go back here. I'll bring Sunset and his Nanny.

I'm not scared to the City, I do not fear people in the City. I worry for my own child, he doesn't deserve see or experience the cruelty of the City especially to those people who live there.

We took the flight 4am in the morning and we arrived 8am. The seminar started at 10:00 am and end at 4:00 pm. It went well, no one bug me, I didn't saw someone whom I really hate. So I decided the go on mall before our flight. I brought Sunset toys and clothes, he enjoyed the City lights and buildings.

I make sure that I pampered him. I will give him the life where he don't need to worry about anything. I don't want him experiencing the life I experience, poorest of the poor.

We're here now at the plane, in few minutes we're going to land in Tuegegarao. We have a lot of baggages to carry and Sunset is asleep so these might be challenging. While going out to the plane I carry Sunset while holding some paper bags, and I didn't notice that I slip one of them.

"Excuse me Miss, Do you need help?" A Man asked while I'm busy picking the paper bag. I slowly turned around, familiar man, someone that I don't want to see.

"I can manage, Thanks." I said and continue walking faster. I didn't mind him but I guess fate is playing with me. I didn't see him at City because I will see him here, how funny it is. He's behind me on the line going out to the airport.

"Mags." he called me but I never turned my back.

What for? If someone left you, you must go forward and stop looking back, you'll only hurt. You deserve better.

"Nanny, Let's just rent a taxi. Call the service car that we can't wait anymore." I said and as we go out at the airport, I immediately ride at the back of taxi and close the door, Nanny sit at front.

Not today please. Not yet. I'm not ready to face the ghost of my past. I just started fixing my life, I slowly getting my peace, please don't take it away easily. Seeing him again, I felt the pain that he inflicted to me.

That night I can't sleep even though my body feels tired.

When the sun came, I don't have a choice to get up because I had a lot of things to finish in my work. Before leaving our home, I remind Nanny to stay home and never let Sunset to go out.

"Ma'am, excuse me, someone is waiting for you he said he want to order many furnitures. He came early and he's at lobby" Marie, my secretary said as I enter my office.

"Alright, that maybe an urgent thing because he came early. Guide him to my office." I command.

A minutes later someone knocks, I heard Marie asked if it's okay to let the visitor in.

"Yes Marie, Let him." I'm cleaning my table when the visitor came in so when I look who it was, I was shock.

"What do you need?" I asked straightforwardly.

"I'll buy some furnitures and I want you to supply the furnitures of my hotel" he said.

"Okay. Contact my secretary and she'll be the one who'll assists you. Do you still need something? If none you can leave." I said and point the door.

"Can we talk in private? About private matters." he asked.

"You can tell it now." I said so that we no longer need to meet at all.

"I know you bear my child, where is he? I don't want to shock you but I guess you know that I also deserve to know him." I slapped him so that he'll be awake and realize what he was saying.

"How dare you! Do you hear yourself? You deserve what? Let me remind you on what you had done, you left us. Now if you don't have anything to say, you may leave." I managed to stand firm even though I'm shaking.

"Let's talk please when you're calm, I'll give you two weeks to think and I'll go back here. I will explain everything to you, please hear me out!" tears drop on his eyes. If he think that he will get me by just crying then he better stop, I've done enough.

"We don't have anything to talk about. Leave!" I said shouting and call Marie to let this man leave.

The name of that man is Blemsh, he deserve his name, it suit to him very well. Where he gets the nerve to show his face to me, after all the things he had done? Wow. For those years, he never contact us, he never asked us if how we are? He did nothing but left us and now that things are going well, he showed up, asking to be part of my child life. I won't let him.

To those people who only knew to leave when things aren't in favor to their want are the people who doesn't deserve to come back when things are well.

When you choose to leave someone, make sure that you'll never come back, that's the best justice you can give to those people who left behind.

To those people who suffer alone, who cried all night, who lost for awhile, who continue asking for their worth.

Give them the justice they deserve by not coming back to their life, by letting them enjoy the beauty of life once again that you took away when you didn't choose them.

"I understand where are you coming from Mags, I really do. However, please also understand that I should be a part of child's life, whether you like it or not." He said and start walking to the door.

"My child shouldn't be involved in our mess. You grew up longing for Father and don't let my child experience it." he continue.

"Don't be selfish. In two weeks if you didn't let me meet my child, I will fight for my right and we will definitely see at court. I hope we will not." He added before he finally close the door.

Anger completely eat me, I immediately get my gun to the drawer below my table.

I follow him until the parking lot.

He's about to open his door and I'm few miles away, behind many cars but I clearly see him.

I pointed my gun to his direction.

*Bang Bang Bang*

Three shoots of gun. I panicked when I saw him covered by his blood.

Did I do it?

Did I commit sin again?