declaration of love

I really want to ask Xavier something like this, he loves me in what context? He loves me under what circumstances?

Is he willing to die for me? Is he willing to live for me? Is he willing to be sick? Is he willing to recover?

This silly question haunts my deepest feelings. Because, I can do anything for my love for Xavier. I could be the craziest person, and I could be the sanest person.