White powder

Half an hour later and 3 drinks later ,I'm dancing in the sea of people ,feeling the music move through my body . I'm dancing on Nick an grinding on him although, at first I felt as if I didn't know what I was doing . I move my body to the rhythm of the music on him while he dances behind me grabbing my hips .As I'm dancing I see Christian from across the room standing with a beer bottle in his hand meaning on the wall giving me an I'm disappointed in you look .I continue dancing on him until he leans in to my ear and he whispers " I have something if you wanna do something " he says to me giving me half smirk.

I think about it for a second and decide that you know what why not ? Because I am here to have fun and let loose .

"I nod my head yes and he grabs my hand and leads away from the crowd .For a second there the logical side of me tells me i probably shouldn't ,that cant end well but i ignore it . So he leads me slowly to one of the rooms and we enter . He closes the door and takes something out of his pocket . " Have you done this before " he asks while fulling showing me what was in his pocket. I finally see that he is holding up a bag of white powder in a clear plastic bag along with some orange colored pills .

"Yes ,I answer " and I think back to the time when I have first done it . Me and my friend were cornered by a group of these boys who were in a higher up class ,they made us feel safe and assured us nothing could ever go wrong , that it was just drugs and everyone did them at a certain point in their life and so we trusted them. Turns out they did this for the laugh of it, just to humiliate us at the lower grades .That night is still pretty vivid to me .

He puts them on the bed and gives me an assuring look that this is all good . "Here I'll go first " he says after he has like laid everything out . "He then puts some on the palm of his hand and gives a look one last time. "You are going to love these , I use them all the time and i swear they take me somewhere else like in a matter of seconds ".

He sniffs the white powder into his nose and he rolls his head back for a moment .As I'm standing there, i can tell that his knees seem to tremble so he decides to sit down on the bed . " Here you go" he pushes the stuff over to my side ." There you go its your turn now " .

" Actually ,i think I'm just going to leave ,its been a long day an day and i have homework to get back to. "What is that ,is that an excuse i hear ,you clearly came to the party to have fun and you didn't say no to when i asked you before .So you aren't going anywhere.Stay here and take a whiff of that so we can all be happy and be jolly. " he demands in a stiff and firm tone . "NO ! " i say to him and he gets up from the bed and something about the look in his eyes isn't too safe. "KIMBERLY , I am asking nicely for you to take the fucking drugs , just do it so we can all be happy ,that is all I want really , DON'T YOU WANT THAT ! HUH! He shouts ,so i decide to kick him and make and i run out of the room. I quickly scan the place for another room . As I enter the room, I Chris with some girl kissing on his bed and I zoom past for the Toilet so I don't disturb them . " I'm so sorry I just need the toilet . I say with my hand on my mouth .

I go in and lock the door and put up my hair in a ponytail because from all of the events that have happened it has been messes up. I start throwing up and crying not caring that I am being heard by Chris and probably Rachel .I am startled when I hear a knock on the door . " Hey Kim its Chris are you okay ?"

" And do you need anything ?" he asks sounding completely concerned .

"No I'm fine " I say and start vomiting again .

He knocks again " Kim ,can you open the door so I can at least help you , cause you don't sound okay " he says

" I don't need your help and neither did I asks for it so just let me be " I say and start throwing up again.

Its quite doe some time until ,I hear a key being put into the door and it jiggling a bit .The door opens and there stands Christian in his black t- shirt looking at me with a very concerned look .

" Are you okay ?" he asks me after what feels like hours of standing by the door . An then he just comes in and sits on the floor and takes me in his arms and hugs me while i cry . " I don't feel so good I tel him and rush for the toilet and throw up some more .

"I feel so miserable right now and don't know what I even came I just was hoping to have a good time an ignore the fact that the girl that I thought was my friend was lying to me this whole time . I just don't know I kinda feel like my whole life is crumbling and l feel like I don't have a purpose in life and that makes me feel so miserable .

I wanna do more in life rather than just waking up and going to school you know" I ramble on while he brushes my hair and wipes my tears with his hand and looks at me .

" You know what I'm so sorry for disturbing you I'll leave " I say getting up to leave .

"No ,you're not bothering me you aren't doing too good so I am going to try to make you feel better "

" Really how are you gonna do that " I ask him

"I have a plan follow me " he says and leads me out of his bathroom