Chapter 104

It is after the whole thing and I am feeling a lot shitty right now, I don’t know what to do with myself right now. Christian was hard and brutal this time. I have wrapped myself in the blanket to try to console myself. The images and the memory is still fresh in my mind. He told me to count to eight and then because he felt like it wasn’t enough, he decided give me eight more. I can barely sit down right now and everything hurts, I cry to myself as I feel the feelings all come back to me. The bad ones that I don’t like.

I feel disgusted with myself, I came to the mirror immediately after and looked at my reflection. It was too much to bear for me, I think I cried my eyes out until they felt like they were bleeding.

‘Kim eat something’ he knocks on my door and he opens it ‘I’m fine ‘I reply coldly, I am not in the mood to talk to him right now let alone see his face.