Chapter 4 - Olivia

Chapter 4 Olivia

"Who died?" Was probably on everyone's mind, because it felt like a funeral, but it is a wedding. Ha! Wedding.... I wish. I never asked for this, I never wanted this, to be the other woman, to be a replacement or Substitute, I felt like an intruder which I probably was.

My parents made me think he would be thrilled to have me as his wife, but now that I think about it, I am a big fool to have thought so. I mean who would be thrilled to have their mates replaced! A mate was forever, a blessing granted to a wolf by the moon Goddess, a better half that completes you and anyone who isn't your mate could never take that position.

I agreed to marry Charles, the soon to be Alpha of Silver Moon park but I'm beinging to think I just signed away my life to a man who doesn't even care if I breathe or not.

The wedding isn't grand, just the family and a few members of the pack. Since Charles found out he was to marry me. He hasn't said a word to me much less Spared me a glance, it feels like I am a living ghost in his life.

Even now while we stand facing each other to exchange vows, he isn't looking my way but at the wall behind me. He looks lost, angry, sad, tired, frustrated, like he rather be anywhere but here.

Is this how I am going to live?

Ignored and rebuked by My husband?

I was surprised he showed up, after waiting for him for more than two hours, I had given up.

Panic,

confusion, sadness, humiliation filled my heart. It's been almost ten minutes since Charles was asked if he would take me as his wife, but he is yet to respond. People where already whispering, Tears where already making their way to my eyes. I look at Charles who had a nonchalant look on his face.

"Do I have a choice?" He snickered, and put his hands in his pockets.

"Can we get this over with already, I'm starting to get bored" he said still not looking me in the eye. At that moment I felt even more stupid than I have ever felt in my life.

I was nothing and I will never be anything, what was I expecting after throwing myself at someone who doesn't, and will never see me.

My wolf whimpered In longing for her mate, she wanted him to take us away from here, to be in his arms, to be kissed and caressed by him, she just wanted to be loved. Even if it was a little.

Rejection,

is all I have ever faced, why?

Rejected by my mate for a reason I Know not of, pushed into a marriage of convinience by my parents also feels like rejection.

And now married to one who loathes my presence.

I found my mate when I was eighteen, he was twenty at the time, we were so inlove, I loved him just at the sight of him, his smell, his look, everything was beautiful. He loved me.... Or so I thought.

It was finally time for me to introduce my mate to my parents, I went to see him at our usual spot, by the river bank. I waited for him for hours but he never came. When he finally showed up, he looked different, he was distant, sad, angry and looked broken. He looked like he had just been in a fight, his Golden blond hair all messed up, his sky blue shirt wrinkled and dirty and his knuckles were red.

"What happened?" I asked him worried and ran towards him, I tried to take his hand to inspect the wound but he invaded my touch like I was a contagious plague.

I looked at him straight in the eyes but I just couldn't understand what I saw. Where was my mate? Who was this? He looked at me with hate and anger, his once gentle and beautiful hazel eyes where filled with rage and spite.

What happened to him?

Was it I? Had I done something?

I was confused, lost and scared, so scared that I moved back in fear that he might hit me.

"I don't want to ever see you again! Stay away from me!" He bellowed.

What was happening? I thought.

"Why? What have I done" I tried to speak but it came out in a plea

"You don't have any right to be my mate, I don't want you, and I will never accept you" was all he said and stormed off.

I was broken, bitter, shattered, I felt sick to my bone, I could literally taste the bitterness of the bile in my throat. I was lost, confused, depressed. I had no idea what to do,

I was just rejected by mate!

No explanations, no reasons. But he loved me, everything was fine.... Then what? What happened to him?

Who did he fight with?

Unanswered Questions flooded my heart. I waited, I waited for him to come back and tell me it was all a prank, a misunderstanding, that someone had provoked him and that he was sorry for the harsh words. But days turned to weeks, weeks turned to months, and months to years. I never saw or heard from him again. That was why I agreed to marry Charles, I felt I didn't have a choice, I was the rejected mate. I just wanted a little love. How pathetic could I be?

The wedding ended in a blur and I had no idea where Charles had Gone.

Alone, Again.

Rejected,

Right here in my room in my white dress, I looked at myself in the mirror and I cringed at the sight before me. I was a shadow of myself, my eyes where swollen from tears. Was I ready to live like this? What wrong have I ever done to deserve such faith, the moon Goddess was supposed to be merciful and loving but currently I'm not getting any of the good qualities from her.

I stumbled to the ground feeling defeated, Nothing changed, I am still alone even while married, I just wanted a little love. But I guess that's just too much to ask.