LITTLE K.

It's already past 10pm when Kris decided to get back home to his apartment. Carrying a boulder of frustration and regret. His wobbly feet was slowly taking it's pace towards a narrowed path. Seems like nothing can beat him up even a bear blocked his way. Upon knowing he have a fiancee, he keep on blabbing it out about running away far from earth with his wife just as so he will not get married. A lot of people admire him, though only his face and fame are they're after. No one knows who he really is except for his parents. Even himself don't understand to why it happened to him when all he did was just to wail, poop, pee, eat and sleep the moment he was born. Why would the heaven bestowed him something he didn't wish to have. Something he never even wanted to have. His coming of age is not the real issue but instead the ice magic residing in his heart. Consuming aphrodisiac is not enough to loosen it's cold. It will only took effect in several hours until in subsided and thus, he needed to endure it over and over again. Having copulation with a woman doesn't help him a bit either. It only gives him a moment of relief but not for too long. He tried. He did everything he could to feel the warmth. To feel at ease. To be free from his nightmares but nothing gives him pure security and aid. He almost given up. He almost tried to commit suicide as so he will no longer be in pain. The stinging ache that he carried all his life is slowly hinting him down to the ground. Not until he meet his wife, Kiss who's been working his bone in a small convenient store. The man that he thought is a person who will do anything just to earn a living. A penny. Every centavos Kiss' earn is like a huge success to him.

In that day, he was just randomly strolling his way. With a mask and a cup on, he tried to disguise himself as so not to be notice until he reach out a Park. It's quite peaceful and tranquil. He stop his butt to watch the scenery. The river that seems like hollow but full of life. As he was indulging himself, he heard a vague noises not far from him. He turn around and saw a man transporting some boxes into a truck. He carefully looked at him as he saw that the man was trying to stand still even with a pile of boxes in his hands. His shaking body causes fibration that almost fall out the boxes from the ground. His balance is unstable and thus Kris subconsciously run forward towards the man to catch him fall. He extending his hands without much care of everything even if he suffered minor lession. His embrace landed on the man's body as so is the man was totally startled. It took him few seconds before Kris realize that he is embracing the man tight. He then let go, but with a gust of rue. He stared at his hands. He could feel warm. The warmth that he seek for a lifetime. The warm that freed him a moment of cold. The warmth that almost lost his sense of reality.

He look at the man who's now staring lethally at him. He quite understand why but is it really necessary to stare sharply to a stranger who just save him from falling? He look at the man squatting down to pick up the boxes. He ignore Kris like he is nothing. Like he doesn't exist.

'Where's my thank you?' Kris thought.

This is the first time he felt embarrassed and ignored. The first time he didn't receive recognition to the man he just save. All the living human respect and marveled Kris but this single fella doesn't even know how to state some good manners infront of him. Just how can he be not affected by Kris' charm.

'Wow. just wow. Interesting' he thought.

Kris bent his waist to pick up some left boxes. He purposely reached it out to Kiss as so he could touch his hands. And though it didn't failed him. The moment he touches Kiss fingers is the time when he felt the warm again. This time he is sure that it is not his imagination. This time he now knows his strength. His source of life. That's when Kris finally found his last hope. The hope to resolve all his resolution in life. Firmly gripping his final desire to live. For the sake of warmth. For the sake of himself.

When Kris finally reach his apartment, he lazily open the door. At the same time a child bump at him as it says "ooop" and fall down.

Kris stare at the child, looking confused. In that moment when the child look up, he saw Kris staring at him like he could swallowed him whole. He started to burst out crying that sent panic to Kris. He immediately sobber up as he tried to coaxed the child. He tried to pick up the child but it only stand up and run into the corner of Kiss' bed. The child squirms like he is afraid of something. Kris groped all over his body, trying to find anything that scares the child out but none. He didn't even bring a flower for his wife so why is the child crying crazily as if someone took his candy.

Kris draw close to the child as he tried his best to smile genuinely. He approached the child as he said " hey buddy, did I scare you? I'm sorry. Big brother didn't mean to. I'm not going to hurt you. Come out now"

The child look at him with an awe.

'Handsome' he thought.

He reluctantly extended his tiny arms that Kris immediately grab into his embrace. It's the first time he carried a child and so he need to be extra careful. He need to keep smiling. He need to be gentle. He don't know why the child was in his apartment but it give him a vibe of wanting to squeeze him tight. Wanting to embrace him much longer.

'So this is the feeling of carrying a child. Will it be the same if im going to be a father of my wife's child? carrying him. Coaxing him. How wonderful' Kris thought.

The child was silently looking at him that caught Kris attention. He smile widen as he awkwardly says " What is it buddy? Is there something on my face? am I handsome?"

The child only giggles as it responded " Yes. Big brother is handsome"

Kris felt a jolt coming from his spine. His heart was full of warm and he don't know why. The child is a stranger to him who barged in but he didn't feel any hostility towards him. He don't understand but it was rather comforting and soothing. Too hard to describe.

On the other thoughts, Kris was concerned about him. How can a child be here wondering at night? Is he lost? Did his parents know about it. Kris was worried as so he tried asked the child as he says "Buddy, where do you live? How come you came here? Where's your parents? They must be worried sick about you"

The child just adorably tilted his head as he responded "But I live here. My parents are far away. They sent me here"

Kris was shocked. Even though he is a stranger to the child, he felt a bit anger towards his parents. How come they sent him here without a guardian? what if he accidentally be abducted or worst...

Shaking away his negative thoughts Kris just mindlessly said "Why?"

Before the child could reply, Kiss was already in the door carrying bags of food and says "Little K. Sorry big brother is late. Let's eat---"