DO THINGS, MY OWN WAY

She betrayed him. I didn't know what to say to that, how am I supposed to react, how am I supposed to act. This is not happening, why do bad things always happen around me, why can't I live a normal life, live the normal life, people always live and I still don't even know much about this pack. Why will she kill her husband? Why, to that extent. "Where is my father, his grave? I want to see him, I...I wish to see him.' Tears were welling up, in my eyes. I had this feeling that my dad loved my mother, but he was scared to tell her the truth. I guess you're going to think how does he know this when he hasn't even met his father yet, but I can feel it, I can feel it in me. It's like he's inside me. He laughed, awkwardly. "If your father knew he had you, he would have done everything to protect you and make sure you are securely safe and sound. But, doesn't Russell exist?' He dropped the bombshell as I glanced at him. "What!!!!!!!! I shouted. "Yes, his grave DOESN'T EXIST,' he said. I felt my mouth open so wide. What does he mean, that his grave doesn't exist, if his grave doesn't exist, then how did he die? "How did he die, if his...his...' I couldn't say anything, the words couldn't come out of my mouth. It felt stuck. "I don't know, till today nobody knows where his body is,' he sighed. " I searched for his body, all over the place, I couldn't find it anywhere?' He elaborated. "Could...she have...' " No way. She didn't carry his body, she ran away not knowing she was pregnant, carrying you in her womb and she tried to kill you too?' "Even me, as well.' "Yes, even you. " You said, you tried to find me all these years, then how did you know that she wanted to kill me?' "Before I started searching for you, I investigated the places she would've gone to while trying to track you down and that was how I found out what she wanted to do at first.'' He said and touched my hand. " You're my only family, you are the only one I've got now. I have no one else, Russell. That's why you must find your soulmate?' He said. "Why, how does that relate to...' " I want to search for your father, and the moon goddess needs his offspring?' "Why?' "Because that's part of the process and you're the only one that can do that,' "How?' I asked. "As I said, earlier you needed a soulmate, a Luna?' He emphasized the last part. I guess he was tired of repeating the same word, soulmate, over and over again. "What is a soulmate, a Luna,' uncle?' I asked. "A soulmate is your life partner, the one destined to be with you for life,' he said. "And, what occurs if I come across that soulmate, will she be a werewolf?'' 'That is what I'm thinking about?' He said, as he rested his jaw on the back of both hands and rested them on the table. "Is there going to be a problem,' I raised a question. I hope this doesn't turn out to be a bad idea. The one destined to be with you, for life, my foot, my ass. I don't want anyone to be with me for life or rather destined to be my soulmate or something. I don't fucking want that in my life. I don't want to be committed or royal to one person. I don't want that fated nonsense, I will live my life, the way I want it, to be. No one is going to control me. "The destined to be with you can be a human or a werewolf. The one, the moon goddess, can be your wife?' He clarified. "That's nonsense. Is it compulsory, I will provide an offspring.' I grimaced. "Yes, it is. That's the only way we can find your father.' He said as he got up from his seat. "So, there is no other path,'' I asked. "Yes, there is no other way,' he let out. "How...How will I find this soulmate and if it's human? I will NEVER ACCEPT HER?' I said with enthusiasm. He chuckled. "Is it because of what happened to your father?'' He stopped, as he turned back to me. "That's not the main reason, but I don't want to have anything to do with humans. Now, I'm starting to learn where I come from and what I am. I don't want to associate with a human ever again. I don't want them in my life,' I gazed at him. "I meant it, when I said those words to you, I don't want anything to do with humans and that's it.' "It's not for you to decide, Russell. It's not your power and neither is it in our power. The moon goddess decides that, and besides your werewolf inside you won't allow you to reject her?' "Werewolf? What are you talking about?' "Oh, I thought as much,' he deep sighed. "So, that was why your scent was so faint.' "Is it that bad,' I asked worriedly. "Yes, it is bad.' He reluctantly replied. "How.' I was getting spooked. "If you were attacked, how would you defend yourself,'' he said. And, then he started yawning and he then said. "I'm getting sleepy, we will talk some other time ok. If you have other questions, ask the rest of them, they are friendly and they will listen to you ok. Adios?' He opened the door, went out and closed the door. I just kept staring at the door and wondering about what the hell just happened. Why must it be, this kind of way to look for my father, can't there be any other path to take. Must I choose a soulmate or does the soulmate mate comes to me? Whatever. I don't want any stupid soulmate and besides what is this moon Goddess of a thing, what does he mean by, there is a werewolf inside me. Oh, my God. For crying out loud, there is so much to know and learn in this place and just for a whole day, I feel so safe and secure. It's like, I've known them for years and it's quite relaxing here. I don't even feel like going home anymore. I love this place, where I'm staying and I don't ever want to leave this place. j