I CAN'T TELL HIM(LEAH'S POV)

I've been in the Pack for years, my parents died when I was just five years old and I've been living with my aunt who probably doesn't care if I drop dead tomorrow. I worked so hard to feed myself, see and try what I can do, what I'm capable of doing. It's always been a bit lonely, but I had friends who helped me. They are guys I've dated and all of them always treat me like dirt. On the first day of dating, we get all lovey-dovey. As time passes, they begin to lose interest in me and look for other girls or they cheat on me. I cried several times, because of all these things happening to me. Why can't they just love me, for who I am? I decided to take a break until I met Russell. Russell was so different, he was friendly and he smiled more, as he continued being in the pack than the first time he came here. I was always the one, giving him a tour around the place and giving him his breakfast every morning. We got more friendly and closer to each other and most of the time I noticed him staring at me like he wanted to devour me and that made me so happy. On the day, he finished training with some people, he came to my room, greeted me and before I knew it he grabbed my waist and kissed me. That was all, it all started, we started sleeping with each other, most nights we had sex in his room or mine. It was so much fun, he was so good in bed and he was the best man I have ever met in my life. We kept going that way and there was one problem, I had fallen in love with him. And, that was a secret I kept to myself, I knew or rather had this feeling he was not in love with me and I knew he doesn't like commitment. He told that to Derek when he told Russell to find his soulmate. That was why when he said, I should be his lover, I agreed. Not because he was the best, but, rather I agreed so that, the more we keep getting closer and sleeping with each other, he might fall in love with me and I will make him mine and no one else will be his wife and I will make sure he's mine and mine alone. After that lovemaking, we were in the forest. I went to my room, preparing for the next morning. The next morning, I came outside preparing for training and well, the place was pretty noisy and besides I'm not the only one training so hard. Everyone is working hard and they are doing it happily. "Is he your next boyfriend now,' Ken scoffed behind me. I didn't even bother turning to look at him and besides this guy is too troublesome. "What do you mean,' I acted like I didn't know what he was talking about. "Your Russell, or should I say, Stefan.' He said, as he kept walking towards me and held my chin with his hand. 'What do you see in him and why are you following him like a puppy huh.' He mocked. Reasonably, Derek changed his name to Stefan, because of where he came from and probably doesn't want people tracking him down, I think. "I'm not following him, like a puppy. And, besides Sir, Derek wants me to train him. I'm just obeying the instructions, I'm given,' I said confidently, and picked up my shoe from the floor and fixed the lace on it. "What stupid instructions, were you given. Just say that you're happy that he's the one you're training and if it were to be another person. You won't train that person. I can see, he's the next one and so tell me. Is it because he's going to be the next Alpha, that's why you're chasing after him and trying to tell him that you're the best girl in the whole world and wife material huh.' He mocked and laughed with sarcasm. Then, he pushed me away, "Quit the pretense. Does he know who you are and how much of a whore you are?' He smirked. "Ken, please stop all these and leave me alone.'' I pleaded. "Leave you alone. You should know that...' "You are the one that should quit talking to her like that and it's none of your damn business,' Gerard came out of nowhere. Wearing a black shirt, black jeans and some black sneakers. He packed his hair into a ponytail and had some tattoos on his left arm. A dragon tattoo and a yellow sunflower are drawn on his other arm. He pierced his lip and a ring on his nose and four earrings on his left ear. He was handsome as ever, still hot. He stood beside Ken and with both of his hands in his pocket. It's been so long, I've seen him.

"Hmm. Did you come here to defend her now? Don't forget, she's no more yours and she has a guy that she fucks now.' He taunted. "Kenneth, stop all these,' I said in anger. He should just shut the fuck up. Why is he doing all these and what exactly is Ken's problem? He raised both of his brows and glared at me. "What're all these, you mean? Are you mad?' He cursed at me. "You're the one, that is mad and crazy. What have I done to you and why the hell are you tormenting me,' I almost shouted. "You've grown wings, just because you are sleeping with that weakling, doesn't that mean you have the right to talk to us as you please?' He said as he continued staring daggers at me. "Hey, you guys should quit it. Now, now. Come on, guys you are older than this,' he said, as he came out of nowhere as well. " Still wearing, this your Chinese gown,' Gerard chuckled as he covered his mouth. "Just leave me alone and besides I like what I'm wearing and I'm comfortable with it,' Isaac pouted. " As always, with you and your sayings,' Gerard scoffed. "Why are you guys coming here one by one and seeing this whore here?' Ken pointed at me. "Don't ever in your life call me a whore again, ken. I will make you regret it and the day you were born,' I said with irritation. " Say that word again, one more time. I dare you, Leah.' Ken grimaced. "Hey, Hey. I said you guys should stop it.' " Leave them, let them fight till they drop dead, they want to quarrel and fight. So, let them be and it's what they want. This will be so much fun,' Gerard smirked. "How can you say something like that, Gerard. We are talking about our friends here and you're saying we should let them be.' Isaac advised. "Instead of you trying to stop this fight, you are agitating them to continue with it.' " Then, why don't you stop them...' "That's because they are not fighting,' Isaac pouted. " Really. It seems to me, they will fight and they are even glaring at each other now.' Gerard said and shrugged. "Why, you...' "Wow! Wow, Wow! He clapped his hands as he came along wearing his bunky shirt and black Jeans. He has tattoos almost all over his hands and chest. What was he doing here and laughing? "What is going on, here,' he said as he looked around and no one answered him. He simply shrugged and sat down on the floor. "Now, this is going to be fun and I'm looking forward to this great show or rather a movie,' he snickered. I don't blame him, I guess he is jobless that's why he is here. I hate him. "Me too. I'm looking forward to it as well,' Gerard winked at me and gave me a thumbs up. "Make sure, you win ok and beat his lazy ass,'' he said to me and tied his blonde long hair, which was almost close to his waist, into a ponytail and sat properly on the floor. "Damien, not you too.' Isaac whined. Damien just simply winked at Isaac and seriously looked at me and folded his both legs. " My lazy ass.' He imitated. "In your dreams, this girl here hasn't beat me yet and I am getting defeated by her. Anyway, this is the first time, and she wants to try me and she's so full of herself, thinking she can defeat me, just because she is training that weakling.' "Stop calling him a weakling, he's done everything to make...' "Everything? Are you okay, Leah? Has love blinded your eyes or should I say, sex has blinded you and that's why...' Before he could finish his statement, in anger, I slapped him across the face. "Don't you ever, ever in your entire life insult him or call me a whore again. You are a whore as well, you have a girlfriend and you fuck her, the way you like. Your girlfriend is a whore and so is you.' I shouted. Before I knew it, he started smiling and then he was laughing and laughing so hard. He raised his right hand and fangs were growing out and hairs were coming out of his hand. What is he trying to do, Mark me with those fangs or fight me?