The Crush

*WARNING!! TALK/ATTEMPTS OF SELF HARM/SUICIDE*

*MINORS*

*SWEARING*

*ABUSE*

*HOMOPHOBIA*

Character Profiles

Lotus- 14 pan they/them/it 5'6

Elliot- 14 bi/trans he/they dating Ace 5'2

Ace- 14 bi he/him dating Elliot 5'8

Lexi- 14 pan any pronouns 5'3

Dusk- 14 bi he/him 5'8

3rd Person

Lotus was a new student at their high school. They were scared to meet people because they didn't have luck making friends. But one day, they met four people. Ace, Elliot, Lexi, and Dusk. They all became their friends. Lotus questioned them and asked why they were their friends. But they always told Lotus that they were a good friend and they loved them, platonically. But Lotus loved one of them more than the others. They loved Dusk. They knew enough to want to be with him. But they doubted them ever getting together. Lotus started texting their friends about their dilemma.

Lotus- Y'ALL I HATE BEING IN LOVE!!

Elliot- just man up and talk to him

Lexi- Lotus istfg if you don't talk to him I will make you

L- but i can't even stand near him without my heart racing

Ace- Dude you're a pussy

L- fuck you

E- no thanks

L- THATS NOT WHAT I MEANT!!!

A- You wanna fuck Dusk

L- SIRR NO!!!!! ONLY WHOLESOME!!! WE ARE MINORS!!!

E- sure... only wholesome

L- im done with y'all

E- just talk to him or i will call him over to sit with us during lunch

L- fine

Lotus' POV

I have to sit next to Dusk but I'm too scared. What if he thinks I'm too awkward and doesn't want to talk to me anymore?

"I have an idea. We will sit somewhere else and eat our lunch then you text him and ask him if you can sit with him." Elliot said to me.

"Yeah let's do that," Ace said.

So after class, we went to the cafeteria to get food and Dusk walked past us. He waved and I turned my head afraid he would see me blushing. God, I look so pathetic. I looked up and saw Lexi looking at me.

"What's up?" I asked

"When you looked away from Dusk he looked kinda worried." She said to me.

I blushed at the thought. Him? Worried about me? That's not possible. After we get our food we go in front of the drama room. We are sitting there eating then Elliot says, "Text him now."

I grabbed my phone and texted Dusk.

L- hey can I come sit next to you?

Dusk- Ya sure

I can't believe it. He said I could sit next to him. I tell my friends and I go over to sit next to him. When I get there, they are laughing. I sit down next to Dusk and I ask what happened. Then his friend says that he had Dusk's phone. He was scrolling through TikTok and I texted. Thinking I was a hot girl, he said I could come over. I shouldn't have asked. Dusk's friend took his phone again and came across a girl's contact. He asks who she is and realizes that she's Dusk's crush. After he said that, it had felt like I had been shot right in the heart. I felt a tear run down my cheek and then Dusk's hand there to wipe it.

"Hey, are you ok?" he asked clearly worried.

I wipe my eyes and say that I am and that I had just thought of my cat that I had to put down. He gave me a hug trying to comfort me and it filled my heart with joy. I hugged him back for what felt like hours. He then let go and pat my head.

"Hope you feel better," he said.

Dusk's POV

Liam had just blurted out my crush. Then I hear Lotus do a little sniff like they were crying. I turn and see that they had started crying. I put my hand on their cheek to wipe their tears.

"Hey, are you ok?" I ask them.

"Yeah, I am. I was just thinking about my cat that I had to put down," they replied. I hug them hoping they would feel better and they hugged me back. I let go and pat their head.

"Hope you feel better," I said. They smiled and thanked me. Their smile was kinda cute. I say that in a platonic way. The bell for lunch to end rang. I gave them another hug and headed over to my fifth period.

"Dude how do you not see it?" Liam said to me.

"What are you talking about?" I say to him.

"Lotus."

"What about them?"

"They started crying after I said you have a crush on her."

"They were thinking about their cat."

"You're an idiot."

"What do you mean."

"Whatever let's get to class."

"What the fuck do you mean?" He sped up and walked away from me. I was so confused. What did he mean? But more importantly, why did Lotus not acknowledge me when I waved at them earlier. I should just leave it alone but I can't stop thinking about it.

Lotus' POV

I can't believe I thought I had a chance with him. He has a crush on some girl. I lied down on my desk and fell asleep. I wake up when class ends. I grab my shit and walk to my last period. I am waiting in front of the door and I see Dusk walk up to me.

"Hey Lotus!" he said, waving. I wave back to him.

"How are you feeling?" he asked.

"A little better," I replied.

"Well, that's good. Hey um, can I ask you something?

"Sure."

"Why'd you ignore me when I said hi earlier?"

"Oh um. You said hi and it startled me. And it took a while to process it. Sorry if I worried you." That was such a trash lie he's not gonna believe me.

"Ok then," he said smiling. He believed it? He's gotta be lying. I try not to think much of it but it bugs me so much that I'm spacing. But the teacher didn't notice.

After the bell rang, Dusk and I went to after school tutoring. He kept cracking jokes to cheer me up and he would laugh everytime I laughed. God, he's so cute when he laughs. He pinched my cheeks and smiled.

"There's the smile," he said grinning. I started blushing from that. He must've noticed because he started feeling my forehead.

"Are you ok? Your turning red and getting a little warm."

"Y-yeah. I'm fine. It's just the heat."

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah. You don't have to worry."

"If you say so. By the way, can I come over after tutoring?"

Oh my god!! He wants to hang out with me! I keep my composure and say yes.

*Time Skip*

Dusk and I walked to my house to hang out. We went to the back and played Call of Duty and took turns playing Overwatch. My dad called me and told me dinner was ready. We stopped playing and went into the dining room to eat.

It was time for Dusk to leave. He hugged me and pat my head.

"Bye Lotus. See you tomorrow," he said to me.

"Bye Dusk. See ya," I replied.

After he had left my parents immediately interrogate me. They kept asking me shit like, "Did you try to do anything to him?" "Did he try anything?" "You two better not be together." They pissed me off with their questions so much that I yelled. My dad smacked me and said, "We are not your friends. Don't talk to us like that." I started crying and ran to the bathroom. After locking the door, I grab a razor, cover it in rubbing alcohol and proceed to cut my arm repeatedly. I wrapped my arm with a bandage and just stared at it with teary eyes. I started bawling and screaming as I fell to the floor. I got up to unlock the door and when I open it, my older sister is in front of the door, worried.

"Are you ok?" she asks.

"Don't worry about it," I reply. I walk to my room and fall asleep hopeful for the next day to be better.