The Misunderstanding

*WARNING!! TALK/ATTEMPTS OF SELF HARM/SUICIDE*

*MINORS*

*SWEARING*

*ABUSE*

*HOMOPHOBIA, TRANSPHOBIA & SLURS*

Dusk's POV

We were lying down on the couch for a while just in silence. Then Lotus got up to go to the bathroom. I also got up to go to the bathroom. But I had a plan. I was going to wait outside for them to get out and when he does I would grab their hands and pin them to the door, kiss them, and tell Lotus that I love them. I was just so scared. But then I remembered what Liam said, "They started crying after I said you have a crush on her." Shit. I broke their heart and I didn't realize. Liam's right. I am an idiot. I should just distance myself from them. I went back to the couch to go back to bed.

Lotus' POV

I get out of the bathroom and saw Dusk asleep. He's so cute when he's asleep. I walk over to my spot on the couch and fall asleep.

*Time Skip (There will be a lot)*

In the morning, I tried to talk to Dusk but he was avoiding me. I was confused. Did I do something wrong? Or is it because he has a crush on that girl? Either way, I'm worried. He hasn't ignored me at all since we've been friends.

*Time Skip*

I get home and my dad immediately yells at me.

"You didn't deserve to go but I let you anyway." "That kid that hugged you is a girl, right? Wait, she's a tranny? He? Listen son if she was born a girl she is a girl." "Get some not gay guy friends. That doesn't mean some tranny that likes girls."

"Can you stop!? Stop talking about my friends like that! You can't disrespect them because they don't follow what you believe in." Before I could say anything else, he starts beating me. He smacked my face and beat me with his belt.

"You do not have the right to yell at me. No matter what bullshit excuse you have," he shouted at me. I stared at him with tears in my eyes. I got up from the floor and went to the bathroom. I grabbed the razor blade and just started slicing at my arms. Crying the entire time. I bandaged up my arms and went to my room. I decided I was going to text my friends and ask them for help.

L- guys....plz help

A- What's up?

L- it happened again...

E- LOTUS STOP IT!! HURTING YOURSELF WON'T HELP YOU!!

A- god DAMMIT LOTUS!!

E- STOP FOR FUCK'S SAKE!!!

Le- Why did you do it?

L- my dad. he said some shit..... he called Elliot a girl and said if u r born a girl u r a girl and kept telling me to get different friends. and when i told him to stop, he abused me

A- He did what?

A- I'm killing him...

E- ur dad is a bitch

Le- I can't believe it...

L- and to top things off, dusk is ignoring me

A- Why??

L- idk. i don't think i did anything wrong

Le- That's bullshit

A- I'll talk to him

L- thx ig

I sit on my bed crying to myself. I might as well just take a nap. I look at the clock and it's already 1 p.m. Let's just go to bed it might help.

Dusk's POV

I'm playing For Honor in my room and I get a text from Frankie.

A- Why are you ignoring Lotus?

A- They had a breakdown because of it. Also because their dad is a dick-wad

D- I can't talk to them

A- Why?

D- I broke their heart and I didn't even know

A- Just talk to them. please

D- Fine but what if they hate me now?

A- I can assure you they don't hate you

A- Just talk to them

D- I'll wait for monday

A- At least you talk to them

He's right. I should talk to them. Me distancing myself from them only hurt them more. I really am an idiot. I check the time and see that it's 3 p.m. I decide to text Lotus.

D- Hey

I waited 5 minutes for them to respond. Which was weird because they usually reply almost immediately. Maybe they're busy.

*Time Skip*

It's 6 and they still haven't replied. Shit. I messed up. They're ignoring me now. I wish I never distanced myself. I have to protect them. I guess I thought that I was protecting them by staying away. I decided to play something to get it off my mind.

Lotus' POV

*Rewind*

It's 3 p.m. and I get a text from Dusk. I shouldn't answer. He brought me pain so I'm going to give it back. I know I shouldn't but he hurt me. He wouldn't even answer my texts. I started crying again. Why am I so emotional? I wish I wasn't able to show any emotions at all. Life would be so much easier.

*Present Time*

It's 6 p.m. I don't want to eat with my family so I decided to go out to Panda Express. As I am walking out of the front door, my mom calls after me.

"Honey where are you going?" she said.

"Just to get some air. I'll be back in a bit," I replied.

"Okay then."

I exit the house and I take a deep breath. I head down the street to Panda.

After I got my food, I stayed there and ate.

*Time Skip*

I get home and surprisingly, no one said anything to me. I head to my room and sit in there just staring at the ceiling. I eventually just fall asleep.