He's drinking coffee with a girl, smiling like an idiot, and acting as if nothing has happened. He didn't just come from heartbreak, for example. He acted as if he didn't care about me at all. These last few days have been hell on earth for me. I tried to divert my attention away from studying for the finals, but sometimes before I could even close my eyes to sleep, my thoughts were drawn back to the heartbreak I was experiencing. I used to have sleepless nights all the time. But it appears that my ex-boyfriend enjoys his life so much that he quickly finds a new girlfriend.
My gaze darted from Felix to the girl, then back again. I take a close look at her. Yes, she is lovely. Indeed Felix's type. Tss. I assumed he wanted me back? What transpired? Was he telling the truth about everything he said?
It appears that I am the only one who has been suffering and mourning the loss of our relationship in recent days. He said he loved me and wanted me back, but looking at him from outside the window, it appears that he has finally moved on, whereas I am still stuck in that heartbreak and have been mourning what happened to us. I'll admit it.
I was still in the process of moving on. What should I do? I have loved him with all of my heart. After all, he was my first boyfriend, which is why I was acting this way. I've given up a lot for us and for me to be able to love him like this. I thought we had a happy ending, but when we broke up, I realized that it wasn't just about how long a couple had been together to determine if they had a happy ending. It wasn't just the years. Because no matter how long a couple has been together, if they aren't for each other, they will eventually break up. Isn't that the sad reality?
I was being jolted back to reality when my best friend waved her hand in front of my face, causing me to stop looking back at the memories that had been left behind. I only recently realized that I was stunted because of my position.
"Are you all right?" The girl next to me inquired, concerned.
She understood why I acted the way I did. Was this how all of the first heartbreak felt? Why does it have to be so difficult to move on?
I slowly turned my head towards her and silently nodded, forcing a small smile on my lips to distract her from her concern. She did, after all, know who I was. She was aware of how much I had already sacrificed for Felix and me. Bella had been in my shoes. I was still moving forward, while she was turning back.
When I turned my gaze to where my ex-boyfriend and that unknown girl were, I noticed Felix slowly turning his head to look out the coffee shop window, only to see both of us and my best friend.
The smile on his lips faded slowly, and I noticed how his mouth gaped open and his eyes widened as he realized who he was seeing outside the shop.
“Let’s just grab somewhere else,” Bella commented when we both noticed by our very own eyes how my ex-boyfriend panicked to go outside the shop.
Bella quickly grabbed my hand and pushed me inside the car, driving away quickly to get out of there. While I turned my head to the back to see how Felix was getting frustrated.
The world was huge, but why did it seem so small for the two of us to meet? There are so many places for him to go on dates with his new girl that is far away from where I am staying. Did he choose that coffee shop out of all places? For what purpose? To prove to me that I wasn't a waste of his time? Tss.
Bella did take me to the park. It was not fully dark but there were already so many people in the said place. Though, even when it’s daytime, the people weren’t getting tired of killing time in this place. I roamed around the place only to see people walking towards here and there. Some are alone and just here to kill time or chill.
“So… What do you think?” The girl beside me asked.
I shrugged, “Thanks for bringing me here, Bella. I appreciated so much,” I sincerely said while facing her as a small smile flashed on my face. “My mind got relaxed with all of that information. I think my mind got rid of the overloaded info!” I said jokingly and she just laughed.
She put her arm on my shoulder, “It’s nothing. We both need this.”
She’s right. We need a break from reviewing.
I sighed heavily and saw a small shop not so far away so I faced Bella who was busy looking at the people.
“Hey, I’ll just be bringing food for us. Wait for me here.” She nodded before I left her.
I entered the shop and saw different kinds of food inside. I could see a lot of junk food. But no, there’s no way I would buy that. We are currently reviewing for the finals and junk foods are not good for our brain.
I wandered around the shop looking for tasty and nutritious food for our brains, but all I saw were junk foods. When reviewing, our routine is to avoid eating junk food and other unhealthy foods. I didn't give up until I looked around to see if there were any. If there aren't any, I'll just go to another store. I was busy walking around the store until my eyes were drawn to a perfectly sized box of chocolate. This ought to suffice. Chocolate is good for our brain, especially when studying for exams. I ran into it quickly and noticed that there was only one box left.
My hand moved slowly to grab the box until my palm finally touched the box, which did not happen until someone else's hand touched mine. My world came to a halt for a brief moment in surprise, causing me to stunt. I blinked three times before turning to face the person who had grabbed my hand.
I noticed a man dressed formally. He also turned his gaze towards me, and I'm not sure if it was just me, but everything seemed to move in slow motion. My gaze moved down his face, past his brows, thick and long eyelashes, pointed nose, and reddish lips. As I looked at it, I gulped. I'm curious how his lips taste.
Urgh! Pull yourself, Audrey! What were you thinking?
How shameless you are!
At this time, I just wanted to shrink at where I am standing in embarrassment I just did inside my mind. Good thing he wasn’t to be able to read what was going on inside my mind.
His hair was perfectly coiffed, and he was dressed formally. What was he doing in the park, not far away?
My thoughts were being cut off when I heard someone speak beside us.
“Excuse me, miss and sir?” said the lady and I suddenly look at her and blinked three times. I bet she’s still in high school.
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