44 -A

Maybe, indeed, I was wrong. I avoided Ricky or you could say I was selfish and didn't understand his sadness. Sadness my girlfriend. But know, then. I was shaken by some of the facts I had just received. And, I'm afraid... if Ricky ever hurts me. I'm scared of the fact that Ricky really has a mental breakdown! I didn't think that would happen. And, I don't know. How am I going to deal with Ricky after this. Either choose to stop seeing him, or, pretend that our relationship never happened at all. Yes, I have to do that!

'Indeed, I have loved you from the start. But, to force your feelings on me . . . I'm not that selfish.'