It’s like I’ve seen a fucking light, like the universe just told me everything I ever wanted to know about this situation. He already moved on with Zoe, a long time ago actually, and I was too stubborn to admit that he had figured it out long before I did.
Suddenly, a smile covers my face and I feel a wave of happiness and completion rush through me, like I’ve been reborn or something. Even though I haven’t completely moved on from him and even though I would say no if he came up to me and wanted to kiss me, now I understand. It sort of feels like the closure we never actually had. Now, the words ‘drop it’, said with such indifference while looking me straight in the eyes sort of make sense.
I look around to see if there is anyone I can share this revelation with, but my closest friends are already off down on the dancefloor with their drinks in hand. I spot Chris who would definitely listen and understand, but he’s too busy whispering something in Zayn’s ear.