Have I Lost You Forever?

Chapter 1

Yuzu sat on the bed that she once shared with Mei. The only thing Mei left was the notebook where Yuzu planned the perfect date with her. Everyday Yuzu would re-read what Mei wrote before leaving. Yuzu once told her that she doesn't need to tell her that she loves her, but Mei finally did it was when she left and wrote it down in the perfect date notebook. Yuzu was really hoping for her to say it. Yuzu closed the notebook and hid it behind the books, closed to her Yuri hidden stash.

Yuzu turned around and looked at her uniform hanging, remembering a bit of events when she came out, when she was scared to confess to Harumi, Ume, Shou that she was in love with Mei. When Yuzu finally did, they took it well. Matsuri obviously knew already. Nene and Shiraho were the last ones that Yuzu confessed to, well more like Nene. Shiraho smirked and said she knew already. After Yuzu told Nene, she stayed quiet and then had a massive nosebleed. Yuzu wondered what was she thinking, until afterwards she secretly caught Nene drawing a lewd manga between Mei and her. Yuzu had a feeling that Nene kept her fantasies and nosebleeds on check when she was around.

Yuzu also remember when Himeko found out as well..

Flashback~~

Yuzu was walking on the hallway, about to go home.

"Aihara Yuzu!" Himeko called me. Yuzu stopped walking and turned. Himeko reached up to her and stood in front of her.

"I know.. I overheard everything..I miss her too. You know we were always together when we were kids and I care about her a lot. When you arrived to this school, she began to change, she looked more happier, I don't know how you did it Yuzu since she wouldn't open up to me even though I tried many times. Things began to get more lively. I have to admit it"

Yuzu looked up to Himeko, she was blushing and she extended her hand. Yuzu shyly smiled and shook her hand. Himeko cleared her throat and let go "Don't tell anyone, If anyone finds out, I will deny it"

"Got it" Yuzu replied back slightly smiling.

End of flashback~~

After that day Himeko and Kayo sometimes sat with Harumin, Siraho, Nene and Matsuri and Yuzu during lunch time.

Everyone avoided the mention of Mei around Yuzu. Yuzu knew this because she once overheard Harumin telling not to mention Mei when she was around.

Hahahah one time during lunch Matsuri almost mentioned Mei and Harumi accidentally kicked Yuzu instead of Matsuri. Harumin immediately apologized. Matsuri smirked and came up with the idea to lighten up the mood and gave a talking to Harumin in front of everyone that she shouldn't be kicking, it's rude. Harumin sit there with annoyed expression because she was getting lectured by a kid. Everyone kept laughing at the scene.

Hmmm Harumi and Matsuri.. not bad. Yuzu thought and giggled to herself.

One hour later--

Yuzu left the room and walked all the way to the kitchen where her mom Ume was at.

"Mom, I gotta talk you about something" Yuzu told her while she washed the dishes making a stop to sip her beer.

"What is it Yuzu?" Setting the half empty beer can on the table. Then facing Yuzu, while leaning on grabbing hold on onto the counter top.

"I've decided that after graduation, I will be studying animation"

"Haha I always thought you wanted to study fashion" Ume leaned her back a bit and laughed. Must be the alcohol making her a bit tipsy.

"Well I did, but animation really caught my attention1 learning how to create animated movies and tv shows.. hahah I never expected that as well" Yuzu told her while she scratched the back of her head.

"If that's really what you want to do, then try to do your best and get those grades up so that you can get into good school" she said with determination in her voice.

"I will mom..ehh ymm alsi I wanted to ask if I have the permission to study abroad?" Yuzu fiddled with her fingers while she looked at her.

"Honey,I will be upset if you leave...but it it your decision and I will support it. One thing Yuzu..promise me that you'll call me and keep me updated" Ume smiled.

Yuzu ran to her mom and embraced her.

"Thank you mom! Of course I'll keep you updated"

Yuzu felt relieved that she was allowed to go. She then gave Yuzu kiss on top of her head.

"Any news on Mei mom?" Yuzu asked gently letting her go.

"We haven't heard a call back from her or she hasn't mentioned anything. Besides the details of the wedding. " she said half upset. Then grabbed the can of beer and taking a big gulp. Yuzu knew that her mom has difficulty letting go of her daughters. She also knew how Yuzu was hurting.

Yuzu cleared the lump in her throat "ah!" She said trying to sound happy. Yuzu did not want to burst into tears in front of her. Instead she balled her hands into fists, trying to hold back.

Yuzu lost her, she lost the woman that gave her the first kiss, the woman that she fell in love with and hoped to marry someday.

"I'm sorry Yuzu" she softly looked at Yuzu with an upset looked on her face.

"Umm mom well I'm going to get ready and hang out Harumin. You know, before Mei's big day comes" Yuzu walked away to her room, shutting the door.

Yuzu walked up to the bed, grabbing Mei's pillow that she left, imagining it was Mei and hugged it while she cried.

The reason to study abroad was not because of the schools and hopefully become very successful. Yuzu made the decision to leave so that she can try to forget and moved on, instead of coming back to an empty home without Mei being there and walk on the streets where the prestigious school called Aihara Academy who will soon be run by Mei and her husband will always be heard and talked about.