***EDEN***

I feel like I am drowning.

I am living life by default, going through the motions. Everything feels so stagnant, everything that I once saw as my whole life, feels bland and I am losing my mind slowly.

I am happy to be at home, but it hasn't been the same. I am a different person now in a place that expects me to be the old me; thinks I am the old version of myself.

No one has noticed I am different.

I want to say it's because I still do the same things, but, that isn't the truth. I haven't admitted to myself I am different until I have had to.

After being away and coming home I have had this feeling that there is more to the world, that I should be doing something more. I am living on edge and I am about to burst. I can't find where o let go of all these feelings and emotions pent up inside of me.