PAIN WILL FILL THE BRIM WHILE NUMBNESS SETTLED IN ⁿᵃ ᵘˢᵃ ʳᵃ (3.)

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I gritted my teeth.

bullshit

this shitty excuse of a 'system' keep repeating that sentence over and over and over, again and again and again

Fuck.

"SHUT UP!!!"

I shouted in a fit of rage, this fucking system keep repeating the same warning again and again but nothing really happened.

"SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!".

To tell you the truth, I was momentarily a bit hesitant at my own action.

Since I once known the feeling of the punishment the system inflict on this weak body in the past; If i were even once out of character. It was scary and I learned better than to obey.

But after minutes of hesitation on my action, it always keep repeating it's word's but nothing really happened.

I grew tired of it's warning of the stupid punishment that I was slightly irritated, No literally irritated. After the thing I had experienced I feel more and more restless and got angerier and angerier , How long do I keep doing this? I know better for now than to dream of a wishful thinking in the past. I simply wanted to mocked my past self before this disaster, how can you be so naive? believing a stupid system promise who only inflict pain and trauma to this body

I feel sorry

I feel sorry for this body for experiencing such terrible things.The family he once thought was his own was the one who did this to him.

If it wasn't for my naivety in the past I could have killed myself right now, I would have killed this poor kid.

Who in their right mind would experience such terrible pain for a wishful wish?

I knew better now, I was tired. I need to put an end to this. if not me, who else?

People has used this person alot of times for their own benefit, more even than I can remember, I simply felt disgusted, I hate those people. Maybe the person who inhabit this body, also felt disgusted. Maybe he felt worst, betrayed; sad, anguished. What's more worst than the people who you once cared and admired did this to you? only himself knew his feelings, /Our/ feeling. A word could not describe or even utter the feeling's he mourned inside. That's why I simply can't do this anymore, I can't handle seeing this body get hurt again

I'm going to kill myself

No

I /WILL/ kill myself.

I always thought of it in my mind so many times over and over again. Picturing every scenarios on what death would be best on this dying body, wondering to myself what kind of death should I do to stop the pain, to simply stop the dying madness growing inside of me each day, each years, but I could never do it. I always keep persisting and now it led me here.

To this prison

To this damp prison cell were criminal was held captive and now I was here.

I don't even know what I did wrong but everyone said I deserve this, in my mind I have mocked at them.

For their childishness, their ridiculousness, it was a stupid accident that brought me here in this cell. But I think this cell is better than that stupid place that everyone keep visiting all the time just to 'pester' me. So because of this, and because of that accident. I can finally have my alone time for myself, well not entirely. As long as 'we' don't have to see their disgusting faces for once.

So I guess their stupidity made me clear up my mind, /Our/ mind.

I should possibly thank them for being this stupid.

A cracked smile plastered my pale lips; remembering something ridiculous. I wonder... if 𝘛𝘩𝘦 so called '𝘦𝘮𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘰𝘳' knows about this. I wasn't supposed to be here. those stupid side characters who think they're the main character brought me hear out of whim.

Out of jealousy

I just wanna mocked at them again because it's just so.....pathetic. I just can't help it. –

"PFFT-...BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA"

A laugh filled the dark empty room in this prison cell creating an uncanny aura eerieng the dark eerie room already, the laughed continued to echo through the empty corridor. Seemingly taunting like it was mocking something.

of course I was mocking them.

The eerily laugh had stop as it was replace by a foreboding silence once again. Like the laughed earlier was just some sort of hallucination.

A heaved of sigh fill the cell, squeezing out the ridiculous thought I have left, and now the trinkled of water dripping was only heard. And it was simply silent again.

I'm a mess

Well I /HAVE/ become a /mess/ haven't I?

I mean, who wouldn't be?

'god for fu*k sake , Why am I so unlucky?-!' A frown was placed on my already very fatigue face while thinking that. As I was sitting again thinking on something else, I simply sat in dazed...

I miss them.

I miss my real family. —

The one were I find comfort with, the one who keep irritating me but always cared about me. My real family, my friend's,my co-workers, everyone who cared about me, who's worried for my own sake.

Everyone.

I miss them

And yet only one accident can set us apart.