Chapter ３

[Alex's perspective]

"Hello, I'm here to see a doctor."

Since that day, my heart beats so fast, so I had to consult with a doctor.

"Tell me about your symptoms."

"I have been feeling that my heart is beating too much these days and it's the first time I experienced it."

"Untie your clothes and let me listen to your heartbeat."

I went through the hospitalization procedure smoothly.

"Hey, Mom, it's me. I'm hospitalized in the Cardiopulmonary Department of the People's Hospital. Can you

come over?"

It was dark when my mom arrived.

"How many times do you have to do this?Why can't you be like your brother?"

"... I know."

"Look at him, young and promising."

"And look at you, waiting to die having done nothing and not achieving anything."

"I signed you up for this year's civil service exam."

"When you passed the exam, you can enter a government institution, which is better than your useless job now."

"I don't want it. Being an actor is my dream, it not a messy job."

I argued, but it didn't seem to be of any use.

"Also, I will introduce you to a nice girl. When you are discharged from the hospital, you must contact her and get married in the future."

"No way, I won't go."

"You must go!"

"Am I so bad?"

Looking at her far back, I began to doubt myself.

"Since I graduated from college, I have never had a serious job. After so many years, I still ran between the crew. Is my life really so failed?"

It reminded me of what my brother said to me before.

"You are a waste, You rely everything on others."

"Your existence makes the people around you are endangered."

"Am I really so bad?"

Just when I doubted myself, I suddenly remembered Charlie's words.

"You are very talented, I believe you can."

"I can definitely catch up with my brother."

"That must be my brother, and I want to be like as my brother."

The TV across the bed began to broadcast advertisements. I just wanted to turn it off, only to find out that Charlie was the commercial model.

My heartbeat faster again, and my face turned red gradually.

"Turn it off, Is it illegal to grow up like this? "

I went back to bed.

"Ah, when can I move forward?"

After leaving the hospital a week later, my life seemed to have returned to the past.

"Every day I go to the audition and I always fail. It really pisses me off."

I kicked the little stone on the side of the road, feeling a little depressed.

"Hello, this is Alex."

The sudden ringing of the telephone startled me.

"Interview?"

"What interview?"

"Well, I must prepare and take this seriously."

"Finally!"

"MV interview, I am still the favorite candidate?"

"My God, when can I get this kind of treatment?"