Chapter91

Tobehonest,letJacob,whowasstubbornatfirst,stagnate.Althoughheknewthattheotherpartylovedhisfather,hearingLucasaysomadehimunabletocontinue.It'snottruetosaythatyouarejealousofyourfather.Hisfeelingofneglectexpressedhisthoughtsmoreclearlythanhedid,andLucastilldidn'tbelieveit...

"That'swhyIdon'twantyoutohaveanyhopeforsomeonelikeme.Iloveyourfather,andIwillalwaysloveyou.Thisfeelinghasneverchangedinthepasttwentyyears.Itwillbefeltwhenyouarenotyetborn."

Lucaadded,andseeingthatJacobhadsaidsomuch,hesatwearilybythebed,anddidnotknowhowtopersuadeLucabeforehemadeafaintsound.

"TrytomeetJaemee'sfatheronce.Ifyouchangeyourmind,youmaynotloveJaemee'sfatheranymore.Therestofyourfeelingsmayjustbecaring.Ifyouknowhowyoufeel,youcanopenyourhearttome."

Thereisnothinggoodaboutmeeting.LucathoughthewouldstillloveJeremy.AlthoughnowhethinksJacobisJeremy'sman.

"Ifpossible,Idon'twantyoutoinvolveme,youknowMr.Jeremydidn'tcometoseeme,eventhoughhediditbecauseherespectedmydecision,andIwantyoutodothesame."