Chapter182

I'veneverseenKeith'sdadtalksomuchtoday.Ilookedintohiseyes.Helookedreallyguilty,andtherewasworryinhiseyes.Ididn'tdaretoblamehim,becauseheinsistedthatIchoosethisroad,soIwashurt,butinfactitwasnothisfault,itwasmyfaultthatIlikedothersanddidn'tlikepeoplelikeR.

Apersonwithsuchadisparityinstatusshouldnotbetakentoheartfromthebeginning...

Butanyway,moreimportantly...MychildrenandR...

IsuddenlywonderedwhyKeith'sfatherdidn'tsayit,eventhoughhehimselfknewIwaswithR,orhedarednotsayit,thinkingithurtmyheart,andwhateverhethought,asachild,Iwouldconfesstohim.IfIdon'tknowuntilhesaysit,Iwillhaveababy.Bythen,DadKwinwillbeheartbroken.

"FatherKeith..."

Icandecide,Icanraisemyvoice,butthat'sallIcansay.PapaKeithsmiledandsatup.

"Iknowaboutspawning."

It'slikereadingmymind,whatIwanttosay,butIdon'tcare,justaskcuriously.

"Thenwhydidn'tPapaKeithsayso?"

"Whydoyousaythatwhenketamineisgoingtospitoutsoon?"

"Nervous,"

Keith'sfather'swordssuddenlyconfusedme.