Chapter８

"Whatareyoudoingstandingthere?"

OnlyChaninwalkedin,kneltdown,kneeledbeforehim,hishandsraised,andheldthebeltstiedtogether,withoutlettingRunorderagain,asifheknewhisduty,whiletheotherpartylitanewcigarette.Watchtheperformancebeforegoingtobed,justlikeeveryday.

ButitwasstrangetodaythatChanindidn'ttakeoffhisclothessoquickly,andthengotthingsdoneasquicklyasusual,reachingintohisbelt,thenholdingitdown,hisexpressionlookingthoughtfulandnoeyecontact,untilRaninnoticedtheabnormality.

"Ihavesomethingtosay."

Ofcourse,hehadagoodintuitionandhadbeendealingwithdifferentpeoplealmostallhislife,anditwasclearfromhismannersthathewantedtobargainwithhim.

"SpeakquicklybeforeIchangemymindandwon'tletyouspeak.WillIagreetoyourterms?"

ThenChanninglookedupandstaredintohiseyes.HeknewLanewasgoingtoplayagamewithhim,butbeforethegamegotharder,hesaidsomethingfirst.

"IfIcangoandseemymother?"

Whenthesilencewasover,Lanehelduphiscigarette,stuffeditintohislungs,spitoutapuffofwhitesmoke,andcontinued.

"Yes."

Chanincouldn'tbelievewhatheheard.No...Hedidn'tbelieveRunwouldbesoreceptive.

"Butononecondition."

Yes,willsomeonelikeRungivehimanything?Ifthereisnoexchange,butinanycase,itisbetterthanbeingrejected.

"Whataretheconditions?"

Withouttellingmeimmediately,Lanestuffedcigarettesintohislungsagain,andthenstuffedthefiltercartridgeintotheceramicashtray.Hegotup,grabbedthecardboardbagonthebed,threwitattheyoungman,andthensatwherehewas.

"Whatisthis?"

Chaninacceptedhishand,butRannoddedtohim.

"Openit."

HeheldbackwhenhesawarectangularboxwithJapaneselettersonit,andhisexpressionwassudden.

"Whatdoesthatmean?"

"Letmesee,I'llgetyououtofthehouse,"Lanesaidunabashedly.

Chaninclenchedhishand,breathless,onlytomakehimtakehimselfseriouslyanduse"thisthing."

That'stoomuch!

AlthoughIknowthatRunwilldomoreharmtohimoneday,soIhavepreparedmyselfpsychologically,butwhenitcomestoreality,hecan'tacceptit.Isthisinsultedenoughdignity?

"Irefuse."Chaninputthepaperbagonthetable.

[Thedildo(dildo)isadeviceusedforsexualactivity,madeofmaterialssuchassiliconeorrubberandavailableinavarietyofsizesandshapes.]Laneshruggedhiseyebrows,asifhecouldn'thelpit.Hereachedforthebag,tookoutitscontents,andopenedtheboxbeforetheblacksiliconedildoappearedinfrontofhim.ItwasthisthatremindedChaninofhisexpression.

"Justputitinandshowmehowharditis."Saydildo.

Theblackrubberrodswayedandbuzzedbackandforth,makingChanin'slastpatiencedisappear.Ittookhimalotofefforttocontrolhisvoicenormally.

"Ithinkit'stoomuch."

Thismeansthattoomanyactionsmakehimlosepatience.Butthat'sexactlywhatLanwanted.

....MakeChaninunbearable,persecuted,defiledwithdignity,littlebylittlewithoutgoodthings.

"Toomuch.Justputitinandyou'llputitin."

Hetappedaslenderfingertiponthetipofthesiliconerodandrotateditgentlyaroundit.HiseyesalsonoticedChanin'sexpression.Therewasasmileinhisthroatwhenhesawherredfaceinanger,butstillinasteadyposition.

"Iwillgiveyouachancetothinkbacktoanightandchoosetostuffthisin,otherwiseyouwillneverseeyourmotherfortherestofyourlife."

Withthat,hethrewthesiliconestickinhisface.Chaninturnedquickly.Thesextoyhithimonthecheekandthenfelltotheground.Itstilltrembled,ashisbodytrembledinrage,beforehecouldnotcontainhisemotions.Randhascutitout.

"Youcangobackandmakeadecisionandtellme."

ChaninquicklyleavestheroomandletsRunlookatthesheetsinthebackandsmilehappily.

Didn'tdoanythingcrazylastnight.Farfromreassuring,Chaninismoremelancholythanever.Hedoesn'tthinkthathecleansesthebodyeveryday,cleansingeverypartofthebody,even"deep",whichisnecessaryinthiscase.I'mgladIdidn'tuseitbecauseitneededtosatisfyRan'slibido,butevenwiththetoys,hewasn'thappy.

Lanehimselfknewhisvictimsneededtime.Afterlastnight'sseparation,LanestoppedcallingChaninintotheroomasusual,justlikeplayinggamesinslowcountdown.Chanininstinctivelyrealizedthatsomethingbadwouldhappensoonifhedidn'tdecidewhattodo,soheonlyspenttwonightsthinking.Whilelookingforit,hewasnumbandscared.Inthemiddleofthenight,hedecided.

"Mr.LinTian."

Afterheranalloverthehouse,hesawatalloldmancomingstraightup,onlytobecaughtbybodyguardsandlockedintheroom.Forfearofdisturbinghim,MrChaninimmediatelycried.

"Iftheyoungmasterdoesn'tgiveorders,orifIdon'tguideyou,youcan'twalkaroundatwill."Mamorusaidheviolatedtheorder.

ButChanindidn'tcareaboutanything,andthengotupandsaid,Hurryup.

"TakemetoMr.Teh."

Mamorusuddenlyshowedasurprisedexpression,butafterawhilehereturnedtonormal.

"Isthereanythingimportantorurgent?"

"IjusttoldhimIacceptedhisterms."

MamoruknewwhatitwasbecausesheknewitthatnightafterChaninleftRan'sroom.HewassummonedtotakeorderstokeepaneyeonChanin.TheyoungmasterwantstoknowwhatwillhappenwhenChaninthinksaboutit,sothathedoesn'thavetoaskmorequestions.

"Areyousure?"Mamorurepeated,makingsureChanindidn'thesitate.

"Ofcourse,Iwill."

Withthatfirmlook,Mamorudidn'taskagain,buthenoddedandanswered.

"Thengetready.Iwillreporttotheyoungmaster."

ThenIarrangedtopickyouupinhalfanhour,andthenIleft.

Chaninfinishedthepreparationswithintheagreedtime.WhenhesawMamoruappear,hefollowedhimwithacalmattitude.Butthelumponhisleftsternumtrembleduntilheheardthesound.Heisnotexcitedbecauseheisveryhappy.ButIdon'tknowwhatwillhappentohim.

WhenIcrossedthethresholdofLan,myheartbeatharderthanever.Ihitmyeyesonthetoweringchairinthemiddleoftheroom,wonderingwhenitwasbroughtin.

Lane,stillsittingwherehewas,wearingthesamerobes,andholdingacanofbeerinhishand,litacigarettequitecomfortably,andwhenhesawhisbrothercoming,hestoppedsprayingwhitesmoke.

"Thischairisspeciallypreparedforyoubyme,sothatyoucansitcomfortablyand,moreimportantly,Icanseeclearly."

Heansweredaquestionwithoutasking,butRanwassureChaninwasthinkingaboutit,hismouthtooheavy,andaskedhimwhyhewastakingthechair.

HearingwhatLanesaid,heaccidentallygnashedhisteethandstaredatthefacewithamockingsmile.WhenheheardLanegiveorders,heregainedconsciousness.

"Goahead,don'twasteyourtime.Youarelatetoday."

Really,asRansaid,hewasafewhourslaterthanusualtonight.

ChaninglancedatMamoru'sface,sawthepersonnexttohimnodding,andwalkedforwardwithbothfeet.Pushinghimselfintoachair,forChanin,itdoesn'tseemlikeanexecutionatall.Itwasnotanordinaryplace,butanabyssplace,wherebeastslikeLanedecidedhisfate.

Butinanycase,hehasdecidedthattherewillbenolossthistime.

Whenyou'reready,justwaitforRanMamoru'sorder.Hepickeduptheoriginalblacksiliconestickandhandedittohimalongwithanothertransparentliquidbottle.Whenhepickeditup,heknewataglancethatitwasalubricatinggel.ThismarkstheendofMamoru'swork.

Mamoruwasabouttowalkawaybutwascalledaway.

"Stayhereincaseyouneedhelp."

"Yes,"saidMamoruinasteadyvoiceashereturned,standingnexttoChanin."PassmethelubricantandI'lltakecareofit."

ChaninturnsaroundandlooksatMamorustandingbesidehim,suddenlyrejectinghisvoice.

"No,Icandoitmyself."

Mamoruturnedslightlyandlookedatthemaster'sfaceasiftoaskhowitwas,soLanelaughedinhisthroat.

"Areyousureyoucandoitthefirsttime?AskMamorutohelpmesoIdon'tgethurt."

Chanindoesn'tlikethetasteofmenwithoutasking.Thiskindofsexhasneverhappenedinhislife.Ranhasinvestigatedit,butChanininsistsonthesamething.

"Idon'tneedanyone'shelp."

RejectionisfullofarroganceandgivesLannygreatresentment.

Well,let'sseewhenyoucanbesoarrogant!

"Wait,I'lltakecareofit."

LanedidnotbargainwithMamoru,andwaiteduntilhisconfidanthadlefttheroombeforehebecameinterestedinheragain.

"Comeon,letmeseehowgoodyouare."