Time for the truth

Lowell 

I don't know who I have become in the span of a couple of weeks. This is messed up. Not even able to recognize myself. I am not weak. I have never been weak and I need to get my shit together.

You are in love. There is a difference. You never used to care about the consequences but now you have Col. He is all that matters. 

It almost feels like this is all out of my control even though I basically chose him. Col came into my life and it was supposed to be fun. There wasn't supposed to be all this drama alongside and I am not saying that he is the one that brought the drama into my life but at the same time, I haven't been able to handle this drama the way I would have before I met him. 

How would you have handled killing the Alpha of the mountain pack?

My wolf asks me. I don't want to remind him that he is the one that killed the Alpha.