Everyone handles grief differently

Khalid 

I am staring at the wall in the room and all I see are the memories I have of him. My best friend, my brother. The only person that has ever been there for me. He is gone and I am still in shock. 

I was there, 

I saw it happen. 

But I still don't believe it. 

I still don't understand why Roman would do something like that. He killed himself for her. 

Would I do the same for Colm? 

Would I rather die than see him hurt?

I think I would, but it is not something I can say until it happens to me. I know Roman. I know him as much as I know myself and I know how scared he would have been to make that decision. 

Roman died and I still can't even comprehend it.