All the way

Walker 

Regrets. 

That is all I feel as I realize what the fuck I am doing. I don't want to be in here with Penny anymore. I don't want to fuck her; I don't want to punish her. I don't want all this anymore. I want Tala and she is not here anymore. 

I let her walk out of my life without even a fight. 

"You need to leave,'' I tell her as my senses finally come back to me. 

She looks up at me and confusion sprawls on her face "W..what?" she stutters. 

She is naked and I put her in this position and now I am asking her to leave without even giving her any kind of satisfaction. This is a jerk move and I realize that but I have lived my life doing things that I didn't want to and this is the first time I will choose myself. 

"I can't do this right now Penny,'' I tell her. I grab her arm softly and pull her to her feet. She watches me and her eyes wander around like she is surprised.