Is it only my point of view?

As I wake up from a sleep I didn't know I was in only to see a letter next to me,was it from who I think it was?

"I'll be home by 3."

So it really is from who I think it is. But why I am in his house and what did I do? I have no time to ask myself questions,I just need to go back to my house before he comes back. I don't feel like staying here,I feel like I said some things that I should never say...

My house isn't far away from here so I guess that if I'll walk for like half an hour,I'll be there.

Should I visit the Wáng house? Should I? Or shouldn't I? I shouldn't I'll only ruin my good day,I don't want to tear up today,I didn't put on makeup for no reason at all, I'm surprised it didn't get ruined while I was drunk,maybe I was just careful or he was careful so I don't ruin my makeup,my lipstick is ruined since I drank like a professional alcoholic. I feel like someone visited while I was drunk,but I can't remember who. All I remember is that,that person had short Auburn hair and the face was kind of covered. But i remember a word, "whore" it sure was Akio.

I'm supposed to think of a way to make things clear... Why is he calling me a whore? What did I do wrong, he wasn't like this when we first meet. I don't think we cleared up the situation if it really was him,I believe that his visit made it worse than what I can imagine right now considering that my dizziness wasn't gonna run away that soon I was just petrified by the thought of what happened.

As I walk,a thousand thoughts flash through my mind like a hurricane. Should I make a confession? Should I really run away? Should I...? Should I...?

Should I? What should I do exactly? Should I tell Kazuko about his memory loss? Will he hate me because I didn't tell him? Will he beat me up? Why the hell I'm asking myself those questions now? I should try and focus on what's important. Going home and writing something in my diary.