021 - Losing innocence

GraysonLook what you did! You hurt her! This is your fault only!The dark voice inside him screamed at him in rage while they reached his truck. The thoughts made him clench his fists. The pain helped him regain his focus and keep his emotions in check. As he opened the door for her to climb into his truck, he noticed her looking at him.Smile, you fucker! Don't you see that you're frightening her? The darkness was angry at him.The dark side of his consciousness kept shouting at him and threatening to take over control of him. For the first time since he got into the truck, Grayson found it hard to breathe.'Shut up!' he shouted back at the darkness. It shut up instantly."Are you okay?" Aurora asked him quietly and he glanced at her."Why wouldn't I be?" Grayson's voice came out harsher then he intended to make it sound. But he really didn't care whether or not she heard him or not. All he could think about were the cuts on her skin and the image playing in his head when that piece of shit was on top of her about to stab her with his knife.He watched helplessly as she unzipped her jacket to feel her wound on her throat with her fingertips. Hissing in pain when her fingers made contact with the cut, he saw blood from the wound.He clenched his teeth together so hard he was sure that his jaw would snap in half, if possible."Here-" He interrupted himself and handed her his bottle of hydrogen peroxide. He grabbed some cotton balls and wetted them with alcohol. Once he finished applying the pressure to her neck, he took the cotton ball and started bandaging her wounds carefully, trying not to cause any additional damage.She stared at the cotton ball curiously as he worked but didn't say anything. When Grayson was done wrapping her wounds neatly, he put away the stuff and sat back down on the driver's seat. She watched him closely ."Thank you," she whispered in gratitude. He smiled softly at her.Her cheeks reddened but she didn't say anything else after that. He felt relieved that he had prevented her from getting even more injured. That asshole deserved to get beaten up, seriously though. And the cut was deep. If he hadn't come just as soon as he did, she might've died.But she was alright now. They would never dare to hurt her again. Never again.For now, they were gone. She could finally breathe properly again. And maybe Grayson would forget about that bastard too. After he killed those guys back at the house, he wondered if he should go back to kill the guy who was left unconscious in the forest. End him so he can be sure that he is dead and will never bother his girl again.The thought is tempting, you probably should do that. The darkness inside him taunted him."Okay, what's wrong? Why do you look like you will kill someone right now?" Aurora's soft voice woke him up from his bad thoughts."I don't know what you mean," he lied smoothly."Well I think something is bothering you. So tell me!" Her voice was full of worry.She didn't deserve any of this, Grayson thought angrily. She didn't ask for it, she didn't ask to be involved in his life. Her life was supposed to be hers alone. But she just had to pop into his life like a ray of sunshine, full of hope and redemption. Hoping that he will change for the better, but it was too late for him. He was already broken inside."We should find a place to stay," he said instead but she were having none of it.Unstrapping her seatbelt, Grayson watched her climb over the console till she were straddling his lap.Before he could protest, she began caressing his hair and stroking his cheek."Don't hide things from me," she ordered softly. "You're making me worried.""Fuck," he hissed under his breath and wrapped an arm tightly around her waist.And for a moment, Grayson forgot everything that was happening between you two. Everything else faded away from his mind. You, his treasure, had captured his black heart the instant you stepped through his front door. Now that you were here, his body reacted immediately."Tell me, please," she pleaded softly.He looked at her in the eye as she cupped his cheeks with both of her hands and gazed deeply into his dark brown eyes."What do you want me to say? What can I possibly say? That I wish I'd never met you? That I am sorry? That you will never be safe as long you're with me?" He spat the words against her lips and felt her body shaking. "That the thought of you dying because of these fucking assholes pisses me off so much that it makes me physically ill?"She gasped audibly and pulled away slightly."Don't pull away! Don't fucking pull away!!" His voice boomed as he grabbed her wrists firmly in his grip and held her still."Please don't do that. Don't leave me," he begged her."Then don't push me away," she replied softly. And before she could comprehend what was going on, she felt warm lips pressing against hers.After he pulls away, he rests his forehead against hers," Do you want to hear the most fucked up part of this?"She nods, her heartbeat increasing the longer she waits for him to speak."That I don't regret it," he told her honestly. "Not one little bit."The tears that she had tried to hold back finally flowed free as she buried her face in the crook of his neck. He closed his eyes, and pressed kisses into her hair, hoping that he could somehow erase the pain from her expression.Yes, mark your territory! For once you are not stupid. The dark voice approved with a cackle."I love you," Grayson whispers into her ear, hoping that she won't think it's a lie. He didn't realise how badly he needed for her to understand that until he said it aloud.It was clear by the shocked look on her face that she had realised what he said."W...what?" She questioned quietly."I love you..." He repeated quietly, almost whispering this time. "So goddamn much.""Y...you can't just say that," she stuttered. "I'm a mess.""You're perfect," he chuckled. God damn it, you have no idea how beautiful you are to me."Stop," she giggled with her cheeks red and tear strained eyes."I'm serious.""Oh, stop being cute and just kiss me!"The corners of his mouth twitched upwards, " A little warning, precious. Never call me cute again," with that, he pulled her closer and kissed her.He knew he shouldn't be doing this, but he didn't care anymore. This was important. He needed to show her how much she mean to him. He wanted her to understand exactly why he was protecting her so fiercely. Why he wanted nothing more than to protect her, keep her safe. No one in this world will ever make her suffer if he could prevent it.Not only that, the thought of losing you terrified him, terrified him like nothing ever had before.Her arms slowly wrapped themselves around his neck and the tension in her body disappeared completely."You drive me crazy, baby girl," he sighed deeply before kissing her again. Her arms tightened around his neck and she brought herself as close to him as possible. His tongue invaded her mouth and she let him plunder hers with hungry need.His hands slid down her stomach to cup her ass gently and press her against his chest. As he lifted her up and pressed her closer to him, she wrapped her legs around his hips while one hand tangled itself into his hair."Damn it..." he whispered roughly into her neck."Are you okay?" she asks as she moves away from his neck.Grayson nods, "Just give me a second and I'll be fine."Aurora didn't mean to mind it though. Pressing her perfect ass on his erection, Grayson growled and fisted her hair tighter when he saw how she was looking at him in pure lust."You will regret this," he gritted his teeth, "Trust me.""Why? Don't you want me?" She whimpered softly, pulling her head back."Of course I fucking want you," Grayson breathed heavily while tightening his hold on her hair as a silent warning. "You're just gonna make me crazy if you keep that up.""You're a terrible liar," she laughed softly, running her fingers across his shoulders," If you want me, touch me. I'm ready for you," she whispered huskily.This caused him to smirk and shake his head slightly, "No, you're not.""Do you wanna try me?" She asked him with a smirk and leaned forward to press a wet kiss onto his jaw line."Jesus Christ.""Do you really want me, or are you only saying that because you are afraid?" She teased him, leaning further towards him."God damn it, Aurora," he growled loudly in response as he caught her easily by the nape of her neck and crushed her against himself.What the hell are you doing?! She is practically begging you to take her! The dark voice in his head yelled impatiently.I don't care. Just get out of my head."Don't push me away," She whispered hoarsely against his lips.And he gave in. Pulling her small frame even closer to him, he pressed his lips desperately onto hers.Grayson groaned as he deepened the kiss and she moaned at his actions. It feels so good... so right.. He thought dizzily.He moved his lips down the side of her neck while placing his fingers around the hem of her top. He slowly unbuttoned and pushed it apart.His hand traveled down her body, stopping at every single inch that it touched her."Fuck," he whispered huskily in her ear.He continued kissing and nibbling at her skin and eventually reached her nipple, sucking gently on it. She writhed her hips against his crotch and the feel of him moving against her core made her tremble uncontrollably.Grayson smiled into her ear, "Does that feel good?""Yes," she moaned breathlessly."Good. Keep moaning," he told her possessively and took one of her breasts in his mouth, sucking on it roughly as he ran a finger from its tip downwards.The sensation sent shivers down her spine and she gripped his shirt tightly in desperation to make sure she wouldn't fall unconscious as he continued to tease the other sensitive bud between his fingers. Her nipples hardened as he rubbed them roughly and she gasped loudly when the other hand trailed down between her jeans.Slipping his fingers beneath the thin fabric of her panties, she felt his fingers stroke her wetness lightly while his thumb massaged over her clit. Her eyes opened wider and a moan escaped her lips. She felt herself getting wetter as she felt him rubbing at her clit harder.Her thighs shook violently from lack of blood flow to her lower body as he continued to toy with her.His hand began slipping inside her while keeping his index finger and thumb firmly inside of her. He continued stroking her clit and it drove her wilder and wilder. She wanted more. So much more and it wasn't enough.Pulling out of his grasp gently, she quickly undid his pants and then began to rub her hands furiously over his hard cock. He groaned at the feeling of her taking him all in her hot, wet hands."Fuck," he moaned as he watched her slowly stroke him with such determination and eagerness.Seeing how much she wanted him, it made him insane. It was not really comfortable in the car because there was not much space for such activities but he couldn't lie to himself anymore. He wanted to claim every inch of her.He wanted to know every part of her. All of her. He needed everything. He needed her. She was all that mattered to him. All he had ever wanted.Slowly, she began making steady circles while gliding her fingers over his length when he grabbed her wrist, stopping her movements."Take off your jeans," he commanded in an almost harsh tone.She didn't question him as she complied, taking her jeans off quickly and throwing them to the car floor. When he saw how wet she was with anticipation, all the control left him and he pulled her panties from under the fabric of her jeans, pushing them aside before pulling her to him again."Are you really ready for me?" he mumbled into her ear after pecking her lips briefly.She nodded shyly, "Yeah, I think I am."With one swift movement, Grayson tore open her panties and dragged them past her ankles and over her knees, freeing her body from the confines of her jeans."You know that after this you will never feel another man's touch. Only mine," he warned.Aurora blushed at that statement," Of course, Grayson. You know better that you will be my first and last. "He smiled softly. She was too sweet. How lucky he was to have her. She made his entire existence worth living.After what seemed like hours, Grayson finally managed to push through her entrance. She closed her eyes, letting his warmth flood her senses even though it was painful at first. She tried to adjust to him but it was no use. Everything felt different, but also exactly the same.He felt so strong, so powerful. His muscles flexed as he pushed himself in fully. He groaned in pleasure as he slowly sank down until he hit the spot that made her gasp and arch backwards. Her eyes flew open and locked with his."Wow," she breathed out as she gazed at his beautiful face."I've been waiting forever to be inside you." He smirked and placed a soft kiss to her forehead."Oh my god," she moaned happily and clutched onto him when his large body started moving again.His kisses trailed down her neck and back up again, causing her to let out little whimpers and groans of pleasure."Tell me what you want me to do. Please tell me. Anything you want me to do," he said in a deep voice while continuing to thrust into her."Harder!" She cried out."What?" he chuckled amusedly."Please!" She begged shamelessly.He smirked and obliged. His hands cupped her breast roughly while his cock pounded inside of her relentlessly."Grayson, oh God please-" her voice trailed off as she clenched around him and squeezed her thighs together. A soft moan escaped her mouth at the intensity of his thrusts."That's it," he murmured, his face buried in her neck as he grunted as he came inside her.As he continued to rock inside of her, she closed her eyes and enjoyed every bit of pain she felt while he was cumming inside of her.Her nails dug deeper into his back and he kissed her shoulder tenderly as he kept pumping into her, making her walls contract around him. Grabbing her wounded throat, he kissed her harshly, licking and biting her bottom lip, tasting her sweetness and sending electricity throughout her veins. He was addicted.When it felt like he wasn't going to be able to last any longer, he suddenly stopped and pulled out completely."What the fuck did you do to me?!" he growled at her, grabbing her waist harshly.Feeling the steering wheel digging into her back, she felt sore after her first time but it was all worth it when Grayson looked like he was ready to take her again."You make me so weak," Grayson mumbled while breathing heavily while staring at her with those lusty eyes that she loved so much. "Damn it, you're too good for me, I can't..." he shook his head violently from left to right while taking several deep breaths before leaning forward and kissing her passionately.Do you see yourself right now? You have it so bad for her. Darkness in him laughed. Who could have thought that you will love someone that much? It's almost pathetic. Do you really think you won't lose anything if you go through with it? She'll leave you. She'll break your heart because she's better than you. You're nothing without her. Do you really want that? I hope so.Its voice faded away as darkness filled Grayson's soul once more."It's okay, baby," she smiled at him as she caressed his cheek lovingly. "Let it out."Grayson took a few deep breaths and wiped the sweat dripping from his forehead," Fuck."He sighed. "Didn't mean to scare you. I just wanted to finish." His eyes were still locked on hers when he leaned closer, whispering, "I love you, precious. More than life itself. Never forget that."She smiled gently at him but the smile turned into a moan when he pushed his dick into her pussy one final time."Need to fuck you one more time," he muttered as he entered her slowly, filling her up with his hard length. As her muscles tightened around him, he groaned softly against her neck, pushing harder inside of her. He couldn't stop himself; she felt amazing. Since this was only her first time, she was tight and hot, the perfect fit.The darkness inside his head even wanted to ruin her so no one wants her but himself. He was already losing to it.The thrusts got even deeper and harder when he heard Aurora whimper from the pain but beneath it, she screamed out of pleasure. This was it. He couldn't wait another second. He needed to taste her sweet lips one last time before the darkness would get its way. But when he saw the pure ecstasy on her pretty little face, a sudden image popped in his mind.The same expression he'd seen her with that day when she'd saved him. That same face she wore right now after they had made love twice. He couldn't help but feel drawn to it. And it was getting stronger.He gritted his teeth and tried not to let himself get distracted by the sight.Taking her by the neck, he forced her down on the passenger seat as he started to pump furiously inside of her. It seemed that she wasn't even conscious anymore because her beautiful face was flushed red from exertion. The look in her eyes, though, still showed that unadulterated love for him.She wasn't afraid of him. No matter how fucked up he was, she didn't fear him. That was what she had told him that day at his place when she came to him for help, after he'd told her about his dark past. He didn't know how true that statement had been. He was scared of everything. His thoughts. His future. Every day was the same since the darkness became a part of him.But still, her eyes didn't lie. She loved him. Always has.He hadn't forgotten that. When he saw the pure admiration in her eyes when they'd made love, he knew he could keep her here forever. With him.So he gave in, allowing himself to get carried away. He held on to the steering wheel tightly while he thrust into her relentlessly until he finally exploded in her.'Love is weakness,' the darkness whispered inside of him. You will hurt her. And you will hate yourself for hurting her. Why should you care about anyone else? Just leave her alone! Let her go!"No, I will never let her go," Grayson growled out loud and somehow Aurora understood what is happening.Smiling softly at him, she gazed at him with adoration when she spoke again. But this time not to him. To his darkness."I love every part of you, even the dark side so please let me in and let me show you that I care about you too so please, don't ruin this between me and him. Let me love you," she said to his darkness.Grayson stared at the woman in front of him. He could feel the darkness trying to get control over him but he fought against it desperately. Not wanting Aurora to think differently of him.Aurora's words were like lightening and the darkness was blown away as his consciousness returned and reality started to return. Gritting his teeth, he shoved her away from himself. Tucking himself in and zipping his jeans, his legs almost collapsed underneath of him even though he was still sitting in the driver's seat.Aurora was startled when she saw the turmoil in Grayson's face."What happened? Did I said something wrong?" she asked worriedly.He grabbed the steering wheel, trying his best to control the raging beast inside of him. After what had just taken place with him inside Aurora, there was no chance he would ever allow himself to touch anyone again unless it was with the sole intention to harm them or kill them.He wasn't sure what had triggered the rage within him but it wasn't the usual type of anger he normally experienced with the darkness and he couldn't understand why it had become such an uncontrollable force inside of him when she was near him."You didn't say anything wrong. You are perfect," he responded, forcing himself to look away from her. "But...I'm sorry.""What did I do?""Nothing," he shrugged casually. "You just...surprised me," he added, shoving a hand through his hair , trying to calm his erratic breathing as well as his raging body."Why did I make you mad then?" she asked, looking at him while biting her lower lip.Looking straight ahead, he said sternly, "I don't wanna talk about it. Please drop it."Aurora shook her head," No, I will not drop it. Is it the Darkness? It made you push me away after I said I love that part of you too? Does it think I'm lying?"He clenched his jaw angrily, "No. It didn't make me mad," he stated. "In fact, it's the opposite." He took his foot off of the gas pedal and brought it back to the brake."It makes me so fucking happy," he said quietly. "And I'am happy when I'm with you, baby.""Why do I hear disappointment in your voice, Grayson?" she questioned quietly.He looked at her, his gaze becoming blank, "What are you talking about?""If I made you feel that way and if you've lost all faith in me because of the Darkness, then I am very disappointed," she explained solemnly.His brow creased together. "That's not..." he stammered. "I've never lost faith in you, Aurora."She stared at him intently with furrowed brows and pursed lips."You're just letting it win by pushing me away and soon it can hurt us both. Do you want that? Do you want us to break up after everything? After I finally found you all these years? Do you?"Her voice cracked as the tears that were threatening to fall fell down her cheeks, causing Grayson's heart to ache at the sight. The darkness was starting to take over him once more.She's right."Of course not, baby. You mean the world to me," he answered honestly, wiping away some stray drops of her wet cheeks. "Let's just talk about this later. Right now we need to focus on taking care of you so you can heal faster."Tilting her head to the side, she sighed sadly, knowing deep down that he was right. After their lovemaking, she looked pretty exhausted and ready to go sleep already and for a second his Darkness almost smiled at how cute she looked and it felt triumphant knowing they did that to her."Let's drive home. I have another place to stay so just sleep while we get there," he said before grabbing her chin and turning her face towards him. His cold eyes met hers and his hand gently pushed against the soft skin under her jawline to pull her closer."Are you okay?" he muttered before pressing his forehead against hers."I'm fine," she whispered against his lips before closing her eyes. Her voice was so weak and tired. "Just promise me you won't ever let the darkness control you, okay?"He pressed a kiss against her temple and nodded."Promise."