Angry at myself for being in this situation and angry at Lucian for being an idiot. The urge to kill Lucy stronger each day I spent in this place. Being around people that do not trust you can be really exhausting. I really thought Lucian and I were making progress with our bond. Although he annoys me I can feel the urge to mate with him get stronger each day.
After I dreamed of near-death with Lucy, I went into the bathroom to clean myself up. I took a quick shower and whether or not I admitted it I could not go back to sleep because I was scared. Scared of the power Lucy held over my peace at night. What if she truly kills me this time. Her hatred for me burns deep into her soul. It's a good thing we have a mutual feeling because if given the chance Lucy Grinder will be dead.