Eloria Camer thought of all the things that her father went through because of her. Yes, it was all because of her selfishness and blind love for Rayan Varence.
Maybe she deserved those sufferings she endured because of Rayan Varence in her previous life. After all, she was the one who pushed her father to support Rayan Varence. She still remembered how hard that was for her father who was known as King Horace's best friend. In the end, her father gave in, all due to his love for her, and helped Rayan Varence to seize the throne following the sudden death of King Horace.
Now that she thought about it, she realized how bad of a daughter she was. When King Horace died, her father lost a best friend but... all she thought about was helping the man she loved. Instead of sympathizing with her father or giving him time, she urged him to help her and never once thought of what her father would have to go through.