Most people who saw it were limited to my fiancé's friends and family complimented the paintings. I could never sketch anything right before my eyes but the figure, faces, and places in my paintings were those I felt a connection to yet I knew nothing of them.
"You don't have to look so serious about it, I just don't want to feel guilty for forcing you to do something you don't want to do," my mother told me softly.
I nodded with a smile happy that as much as my hands drove me to draw and paint, I don't want to be known as an artist. I just do it for fun," I explained things to her hoping she does not feel like I was unhappy.
I guess I will have to talk things through with my girlfriend. I told her not to let anyone see the paintings. Half of the time, I burn them when I am done because they feel too strange, so otherworldly that it makes me remember the feeling I suffered so much to get rid of.