Chapter 19

Chapter Nineteen

Meeting Jane this time is oddly similar to last time in how I feel; I’m nervous, sweaty, and horny. Of course that could be because I am often all of those things on any given day, just maybe a little less sweaty. I turn the heater down in my car, and then go back to squeezing my steering wheel. I’m doing a decent job at not glancing at Riak beside me every 2 seconds. She’s coming along for the ride, but promised to stay in the car so I wouldn’t choke on the awkwardness. I’ve been speculating on what this meeting could be about, while simultaneously hoping it’s not what I’m pretty sure it is about - us. I’ll have to let her down easy. I’ll have to make it clear that I’m with Riak now and have no interest in rekindling anything with her. I’ve only seen Jane cry twice and both times made me feel like a completely useless human being, and neither time was I the reason she was crying.