Chapter 15

POV Max

"What did you do last night? Even here I can smell the alcohol," Noah asks.

" I didn't drink that much, Melek is the one who doesn't know that there is a limit to stop drinking, she got drunk and I left her in her room.

" You and Melek sure are close," exclaims Noah.

" By the way, who is the mysterious girl you were with yesterday," he asked curiously.

" Wao the news travels fast, she is Emily Parker, a childhood friend or rather ex"girlfriend.

" Seriously.

" Believe me I'm still surprised to see her again," Noah says excitedly.

"And do you still like her," I asked.

" If I'm honest with you, yes, she was my first love and I feel very connected and now that I know the feeling is mutual I'm very happy.

  Chubby, this is bad news for you, I hope you don't fall apart again.

" Well, brother, I'm happy for you, take it easy.

We finish breakfast and Noah heads to the library and I go back to my room to get ready.

Mattew arrives in the room, where he slept.

" Hey, you're okay, what happened to you?

" Nothing, I'll just sleep if they ask for me, say I'm sick.

Classes just seem routine, I finish my morning classes and decide to send a message to the fat girl, she must be killed by the hangover.

>> I already know what relationship the mystery girl has with my brother. <<

She doesn't answer, maybe she hasn't seen it after 10 minutes I receive a text.

>> Tell me, everything.

I'll meet her on one of the benches near the fountain to talk to her after lunch.

I can see her in the distance when I come back from lunch with the guys, she's sitting in black denim shorts and a white shirt and wearing a Boston cap.

She's looking worried when I see her eyes turn to me.

" What are you doing, I've been waiting for you," the fat girl shouted in annoyance.

"Calm down, you want to know so much.

" Yes, don't make it longer.

" It's fun to see you suffer," I teased her.

I wink at my comment.

" Since you asked him, you didn't mention me, did you?

" I have common sense, why I would tell you.

With a face of desperation she asks me.

" In the end, are they boyfriend and girlfriend or not?

" The truth is that if they are dating she was his ex"girlfriend and they have decided to take it up again.

She has a worried face, like a sad puppy.

" Because I have bad luck, I wish that only these feelings that weigh on my heart would disappear," says the fat girl with a sad voice.

Her eyes turn glossy, the news shattered her, she gets up sadly and walks away not even saying goodbye to me this was not the way I imagined it would be.

I feel bad for her, I feel that she is sad and that makes me feel it too.

I'm following her from afar, I see her throw a blue envelope in one of the trash cans, I'm very curious so I decide to pick it up.

It's a love letter to my brother it's seriously chubby, you wrote him a letter and it's dated today when you must have written it , I really envy the way you see him and love him .

Without wasting time I read the letter I know I shouldn't, but she dismissed it.

My heart turns over, her feelings are captured and it is truly beautiful that touches my soul, she is an incredible woman.

Letter .

You are what I think of every morning when I wake up and the last thing that comes to my mind, every night before I go to bed.

I have seen you in more than one dream, and I try to get closer to you, but I fear your rejection is a reality I can never face.

I may never have the courage to fight for what I feel, you seem so distant and so far out of my way.

Your figure crosses my gaze even though you don't even know it, from time to time you look in my direction even though I am sure you are not looking at me. You are someone distant and full of mysteries for me.

I don't know how to explain the accelerated beating of my heart every time I see you, a feeling you will never know. I think of the things I would do if you knew what my feelings were and decided to reciprocate them.

But that is a dream that will never come true. I'll have to settle for the looks I get from your pupils from time to time.

I often feel that you are the half I need, but there is something that prevents me from getting closer. The distance between you and me is not physical, it goes beyond that. it is made up of barriers filled with fears and worries.

For fear of seeing my feelings shattered. You seem to me to be someone of all I can aspire to.

You occupy a permanent place in my head and torture me, because I can't be near you.

I don't know what tomorrow will be like, or if I'll ever forget you. I don't think I can do that.

I have sat and thought many times what are the things I would dare to do, just to be by your side.

I mean, you seem like the perfect person I'd like to be with. But the problem starts when I remember that I don't even have the courage to approach you.

And I don't know what to do to break my silence. I've always liked you but I feel that today more than ever, your love is out of my reach. I wish I could do something to change things, because you don't know how much you mean to me.

I never thought that Melek would feel this way, I really regret having been the one who broke your illusions, when I look for her I can't find her anymore, she doesn't answer my calls either.

That same night I can see her with Caroline sitting on some benches she is lying on Caroline's lap, she is crying I can hear her crying.

"See, I told you that's why I never liked that idiot, I knew he was going to hurt you," Caroline vociferated.

" How dare he make you cry,that idiot" shouts Caroline indignantly.

Melek continues to sob, while Caroline holds her back and wipes away her tears.

" I know you feel like the world is coming to an end, but it's not, it's just the beginning, Mel," exclaims Caroline sadly.

" What do you mean," says Mel between tears and tears.

" You will probably meet other idiots, but someday you will meet a man who will always treat you as you deserve, as if you were the only thing in his life and without you having to ask him he will give you everything, because for the wrong person you will never be valuable but for the right person you will be worth everything " says Caroline with a calm tone of voice.

Melek stands up and hugs Caroline.

"What shall I do now?" asks Melek in a trembling voice.

Caroline breaks away from her and wipes the tears from her cheeks .

" First things first, stop crying so much, your eyes will swell up and you just have to move on.

They leave and do not notice my presence, it breaks my heart to see her so sad, I have just buried all her hopes.

I go back to my room but I keep thinking about Melek and how bad she was, what's wrong with me, I'm really so worried about that girl.

The next day at lunch I see her, she is sitting with her friends, my idiotic friends are making silly comments bothering her, she doesn't even flinch before she would have reacted quickly and let out some witty insult.

She doesn't care, she doesn't even eat she gets up from the table and leaves.

Caroline calls out to her but she ignores her, I feel like I should talk to her I leave my tray of food and go out after her I see her in the distance walking around campus but she is so self"absorbed.

Stunned that she was so deep in thought that she didn't hear me call out to her, I caught up with her and told her.

" Hey, you didn't even eat, I don't want you to get weak afterwards, come on, let's go," I exclaimed as he took her by the hand.

I took her to the restaurant where we had breakfast for the first time and she ordered two servings of mixed kabobs and tacos.

" Eat, you need it," I say worried.

" Yes, thank you Max.

They bring us the food and everything looks delicious, but Melek's face doesn't change in the slightest and even with the food I can't make her feel good.

" Why do you look so depressed?

She just keeps silent, she doesn't answer me on purpose, I can't think of anything else so I take one of the skewers and tell her to try them as soon as she takes a bite.

The meal was uncomfortable and she barely ate because I made her do it, we are on our way back to the university.

I watch her walk away to her room, while I go back to mine as well.