The Scarlet Vampire

I imagined the entire thing during a road trip from Pampanga to Metro Manila. I thought it was real until I snapped out of it. It's crazy how a Red Bull Supreme Shot, Monster Ultra, and a double shot espresso do to your brain if you have schizophrenia.

You start to maladaptively daydream. I've been travelling with my father the whole time, and he made me snap out of it by calling my name multiple times, louder than the last after parking in the NAIAX airport. I forgot we're supposed to pick up my mother from Terminal 1.

Then, we waited for a while, smoking a cigarette during the dawn in the morning. The skies are still dark, but the sun is rising very soon.

As soon as she finally arrived, she waved at us after the last cigarette stick. The sun had already risen, but not too high, just hovering the horizon, which paints the dark skies into a cool hue between green and neon blue. Yet, you can still see the stars and the moon as bright as that tanto blade I had in my hallucination.

We went home after my mother treated us to some pizza at Greenwich. She knows my favourite breakfast is pizza, regarding how I've only eaten it rarely a few times a year.

We arrived at home finally back in Pampanga as she brought gifts from Japan such as a drawing tablet for my 'osu!' game on my computer. Dark chocolates and dark roasted coffee grounds in huge bags. I drank my first cup of the morning after the whole sleeping trip.

It got me intoxicated into a manic episode due to too much caffeine, worse yet, lack of sleep, enough to make me hallucinate.

I checked in my Discord direct messages just to find Sakura hasn't replied yet since the first day we dated. I felt ghosted. I've been having recurring nightmares of getting cheated on by different women every night after being dominated by sex. Just to get cucked by another man.

But thanks to my mother's embrace. Holding me close into her arms made me feel safe enough for the whole ride not to think about my possessive manifested nightmares. Usually, every dominant woman I meet is more toxic than fully submissive girls online. Especially E-girls.

The ones with the ahegao hentai profile picture always act narcissistically. They claim to be manipulative just for the sake of being edgy. And proving that they are a psychopath that they self-diagnosed through a quirky BuzzFeed quiz is just absolutely random. And very idiotic.

This goes the same for every e-boy who pretends to be daddy alphas. They are actually just bottom bitches in denial who have a squeaky voice. And goes "grr, you angered daddy, kitten" with all those stupid aesthetics they wear just to look cool, thinking nicotine addiction will make them look cool. Especially the way they try their best to fake a deep voice when they sound just like The Grudge girl from that one Japanese horror movie.

Where the hell are their parents?

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Anyway, so I fell asleep on the ride home, right? Then, my mother gave me gifts. My father knows I'm an indie streamer on Twitch and YouTube, especially a high-quality working webcam and a noise reduction microphone to start my YouTube career.

I got so hooked up on dopamine that I started to go all crazy around the house.

By this time of the year, there had been a new batch of vaccines that are a hundred per cent effective against the latest current variant of the COVID-19 novel coronavirus. I was vaccinated by it already just yesterday. Still, my father and I had to help my mother get home late at night until the sunrise.

I finally get to earn my freedom from my house arrest due to my mental instability after 7 years of being locked up in either a mental ward or my own home. All I had to do was to stay behaved, act normal, practice being sane, and if I get the new vaccine, I get to go outside.

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I sent myself outside wearing the new hoodie my mother gave me. It was a cosplay hoodie of Megpoid Gumi from the MATRYOSHKA song by Hachi. She claims that she saw the hoodie from my favourite Vocaloid song that I've listened to since my edgy phase as a pre-teen.

Since she knows my favourite clothing is a hoodie, she bought it for me when she stumbled upon a comic store in Japan on the way to the airport. It even comes with a matching Hatsune Miku sweater from the same song matches Gumi's Matryoshka hoodie.

Sadly, she didn't buy the Gumi and Miku wigs, in case I want to cosplay this with someone as crazy as I am in the next Anime-con in the Philippines. I might have to borrow my mother's make-up to copy the same face paint as Gumi from the song as well.

I wore my mother's new headphones as a gift in the outside world, listening to Venom by V Flower featuring Kairiki Bear. Which was a very edgy yet catchy hard rock Vocaloid song.

Listening to these Vocaloid songs made me want to go back to my pre-teen songs back in the day. It looked up "POKER FACE – GUMI" on YouTube just for me to find I had commented on this with my very first YouTube account, as the top liked a post in the comment section. Wow! The comment has been since from 6 years to today. AMAZING!

I imagined my life was a music video while listening to these songs. Then, I started dissociating drastically and blacked out. However, my body was still moving on its own as if it was possessed controlled by another spirit. It turns out to be my dissociative split personality taking over, and for sure, I will not have memories of this day.

Her alias is Matryoshka, named after a song based on its chaotic energy and meaning. But initially, her name was Vayne.

But nowadays, I just call her ViVi.

She took out the phone we both own and went to the nearest sari-sari store to withdraw from my GCash account. I can't believe she knows the pin number.

She took all the money, which was my net worth of 500,000 pesos, from writing all those books and my freelance jobs. I'm the sanest in this system, but her? She's beyond a level of insanity no one can comprehend.

Not even the slightest feeling of the insanity she inflicts on others is just massive enough to cause them a mental breakdown. The most minor lousy thing she could do is send someone into a mental ward without intentionally doing it. Like that one time, Vayne drained my father's sanity and replaced it with her own madness to keep her sane for the rest of just one day.

Which made my father start drinking psychotropic medications preferred to be taken by ages over 50. I know none about those medications. I only know the ones that children, too young adults, take for their conditions.

She has an obsessive addiction to drinking blood, as far as I know. Claiming she was a vampire that inhabited my body after being exorcised. I went to find another host because my soul was too weak for her to take advantage of, but that wasn't the case.

She actually just has feelings over me. It's sad enough to let people know that I have an imaginary succubus vampire waifu with a split personality taking over my body. That's something very psychotic, like I said. Vayne is just bat shit insane, which is the best thing I love about her.

The most fascinating yet terrifying thing about her is how she can read minds, but I can't. I unconsciously speak out of other people's thoughts when she reads them through my mouth. It's exceptionally accurate enough to give them shivers down from their spine down to the inner core of their soul creeping up to their mind. Which will cause them to go crazy.

The thing is, she claims she has this power called "Dementation." I don't know where she got that from. It sounds like some kind of roleplaying tabletop game power from some sort of lunatic race of a character, since it's pretty obvious. She bought a D20 dice set just for the sake of playing a tabletop game she made up to play by herself.

Wasted my goddamned money!

But hearing the word "Dementation" sounds like Dementia but mixed with "-tion," which is some kind of adverb. Meaning she can infect her insanity towards another person. That sounds fucking cool, yet terrifying.

But either way, it's scary how she can do it to other people. And it really works. Either she does it on purpose or not. But God saves those who she does on purpose. Like that one, my father snapped on me (her). Because of some kind of obfuscated sentence, it will sound different and their meaning to other people when she says something.

For example, she says, "I want to kill you."

And other people will hear, "I love you."

Yet, the person she disguises the words with can hear and know the exact terms and their true meaning.

This is something she calls Obscuration.