Man Without Feelings

The sun was already rising, the scorching sun was already stinging the skin. Kanaya had to walk to get to her house. He couldn't find an angkot and didn't have any money. So, he had to walk. Luckily, he met many people. He can also play with his cellphone to relieve boredom.

"Want me to take you, Kanaya?" asked someone who was riding a motorcycle.

Kanaya thought and listened to a familiar voice, exactly the same as the voice of the man who had helped her earlier. With mixed feelings, Kanaya looked at the man.

"Hamdan?"

Kanaya was surprised to see the man in front of her now. The woman forced herself to put on an ordinary face.

"How are you, Kanaya?"

"I'm well."

Hamdan continued to offer himself to Kanaya, the man was eager to take Kanaya home. At first Kanaya didn't want to, the heat of the sun made Kanaya agree to Hamdan's invitation. There wasn't much conversation going on between the two of them, they both fell silent. They were swept away in a beautiful atmosphere full of memories.

A gentle breeze also accompanies the natural beauty that is on the side of the road. The atmosphere is supportive. However, their hearts are still equally awkward.

"What should I say to Hamdan? I can't look sad. I want him to know that I can be happy without him," Kanaya muttered.

"Are you alone, Kanaya? Where is her husband?" asked Hamdan.

"I'm alone, my husband has business." Kanaya is a little confused.

No one knows one's destiny, nor does the meeting between Kanaya and Hamdan now. Whereas yesterday, the woman was confused looking for Hamdan.

"Why did you block my number all of a sudden?" Kanaya asked changing the subject.

"Why do you have to stop teaching too?" Kanaya added.

"You feel lonely without me?" asked Hamdan without answering Kanaya's question. Kanaya was silent, she also couldn't answer the question she really felt when Hamdan left her life. Kanaya also couldn't bring up the feelings that were still in her heart. The woman knew herself, that she had become someone else's wife. "Why don't you answer me, Kanaya?" asked Hamdan.

The woman was silent again, instead she diverted the conversation by talking about greetings from one of the Koran students who was also a student of Hamdan. The man also left his greetings to Ahmad. Kanaya and Hamdan do match each other, the difference in status makes both of them awkward. "Your husband isn't mad if I take you home?" asked Hamdan. "You don't have to think about my husband. My husband is a good man who is responsible, he is also understanding," answered Kanaya. Hamdan's face looked disappointed with Kanaya's answer, "Why do you have to lie like that, Kanaya. I have never been wrong in judging you. You are a pious woman. Even if you know, I have seen your husband hugging another woman. Don't you You know? Or maybe you purposely covered up your husband's disgrace to serve him?" Hamdan thought. It's true, Hamdan accidentally saw Bhishma in the square. The man deliberately approached Kanaya. The man actually wanted to comfort Kanaya so she wouldn't be sad. Hamdan has repeatedly provoked Kanaya to tell stories. However, the woman continued to praise Bhishma. Hamdan felt increasingly jealous, he again regretted that he had become a coward. If he could turn back time, maybe he would never just let Kanaya go. "Who did you go to the square with, Hamdan?" Kanaya asked to lighten the mood. "I'm alone," answered Kanaya. Kanaya asked many things, as well as Hamdan vice versa. They are both curious about the life they lead when they are not together. "Hamdan!" called Kanaya right behind Hamdan. "Yes." "May I ask you something?" Kanaya asked. "Please if you want to ask," replied Hamdan. "Not so," said Kanaya confused. Actually Kanaya wanted to ask about the feelings that Hamdan had shared with him. The woman was still hesitant to seriously ask Hamdan. "If there is something you want to ask, I will definitely answer as long as I have the answer," said Hamdan. Kanaya retracted her words. However, he had to

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The woman was silent again, instead she diverted the conversation by talking about greetings from one of the Koran students who was also a student of Hamdan. The man also left his greetings to Ahmad. Kanaya and Hamdan do match each other, the difference in status makes both of them awkward. "Your husband isn't mad if I take you home?" asked Hamdan. "You don't have to think about my husband. My husband is a good man who is responsible, he is also understanding," answered Kanaya. Hamdan's face looked disappointed with Kanaya's answer, "Why do you have to lie like that, Kanaya. I have never been wrong in judging you. You are a pious woman. Even if you know, I have seen your husband hugging another woman. Don't you You know? Or maybe you purposely covered up your husband's disgrace to serve him?" Hamdan thought. It's true, Hamdan accidentally saw Bhishma in the square. The man deliberately approached Kanaya. The man actually wanted to comfort Kanaya so she wouldn't be sad. Hamdan has repeatedly provoked Kanaya to tell stories. However, the woman continued to praise Bhishma. Hamdan felt increasingly jealous, he again regretted that he had become a coward. If he could turn back time, maybe he would never just let Kanaya go. "Who did you go to the square with, Hamdan?" Kanaya asked to lighten the mood. "I'm alone," answered Kanaya. Kanaya asked many things, as well as Hamdan vice versa. They are both curious about the life they lead when they are not together. "Hamdan!" called Kanaya right behind Hamdan. "Yes." "May I ask you something?" Kanaya asked. "Please if you want to ask," replied Hamdan. "Not so," said Kanaya confused. Actually Kanaya wanted to ask about the feelings that Hamdan had shared with him. The woman was still hesitant to seriously ask Hamdan. "If there is something you want to ask, I will definitely answer as long as I have the answer," said Hamdan. Kanaya retracted her words. However, he had to assume that Hamdan's expression of feelings never happened. Hamdan can accept Kanaya's decision, he also can't force Kanaya not to say what Kanaya wanted to say before. The man slowed down his motorbike even more, especially when the distance to Kanaya's house was almost there. The man still wants to linger with the woman he likes. However, when he realized what he did was a mistake. The man immediately accelerated the speed of his motorbike.

"Don't be too fast, Hamdan," said Kanaya frightened.

"You take it easy, you will be fine until you get home," said Hamdan.

There is nothing Kanaya can do except stay quiet and accept whatever Hamdan will do. A few minutes passed, Kanaya and Hamdan arrived at the house.

Rahman was waiting for Kanaya in front of the house, his face looked angry. Kanaya did not know what caused her father to be angry. Kanaya walked slowly.