Chapter 46

The blood moon had risen. I still had a few hours. The ritual wouldn’t start until midnight.

The past week has been full of complete, unadulterated denial. I’d be lying if I didn’t admit that I was a little angry with Rowan. I didn’t think this was even possible. I was blindsided, yet again. I was beginning to accept that this was going to be my life. I could dive into my career and let that consume me.

But I had always wanted kids. I always wanted to have a family of my own. Seeing my mother raising my siblings, and helping raise them myself, taught me how to care and love for them. But I took the possibility of having children off the table. And that was okay.

I was okay with sacrificing this big life event that I wanted, because I didn’t want to find anyone else. I loved Rowan. Completely. With all of me. In fact, I had begun to get quite comfortable with the idea of being an old crone with a smoking hot boyfriend.