A little therapy

"Better familiar with this place" I hummed in cheerful tone.

After escaping that nearly death, I found peace for myself. What I was looking at was a workshop with a lot of tools hanging around.

As soon as I arrived this, I asked Saya to provide a quiet base and some tools. And I also retrieved the bus that I was abandoned. The retrieved operation was hard but they completed it successfully in the end. With my dispenser and scrap metal, I could create some weapons for me.

I sat on the chair before workdesk and stretched out my hands.

"What to do next"

I opened the book and drew the plan.

"First I need some power suit" I drew a sketch of power suit from my previous life. To be simple, I drew a power suit that was inspired from Halo.

I drew it like a professional engineer. In just a second, I completed it with every detail needed.

This will be required a lot of microchips and rare metals but the most important thing was reactive circuits and arc reactor. Those thing were very necessary for the suit now.

Reactive circuits connects to wearer's neural and makes wearer control the armor with only thinking.

Arc reactor provides huge energy for armor to activate.

I also skipped some important part like nano shield. Considering that the technology here was backwards than my previous world so I had just skipped this part. After all, it required high technology and a lot of time but now I desperately need a suit that can protect me from zombies. Even a plain suit can do better than nothing.

When you ask why I don't make a machine that can produce nano-technology. Yes, that thought did indeed past my mind but after thinking second time, better go with simple first. Who knows what will be happened in future. I watched many zombies movie like zombieland, dawn of the dead, 28 days later,… and the shelter mostly get destroyed by zombies. I don't know can this apply in this situation but I rather safe than facing unknown thing. I didn't have much time after all. In the worst situation that zombie will evolve in future. To be honest, I don't want to fight face to face with it.

"What a hard choice" I sighed heavily.

I clapped my hands loudly.

"Okay, let's start to work"

"Microchips first"

I turned on dispenser and it produced for me some microchips.

"And now program it"

I connected it with laptop and started coding.

I was immersed in doing this without caring my surroundings.

Literally, I was speed-run in this world.

….

24 hours latter.

….

"Fu, now I'm done with microchips part. What a tired day" I shook my head and body simultaneously.

"Now I need to wait for it completing download." I swirled a cup of coffee.

*Knock Knock*

"Come in" I said hoarsely.

"Jean, I have something want to say" it was Saya's voice. I could recognize it.

"Go ahead. I free for now" I crossed my legs.

"Well thing is" she said with some hesitation. I patiently waited for her.

"We got argument" she said with bowed down head.

I silently listened to it.

"I think we can set out together. And I also think my parents were great but they deserted their daughter"

Me: …

'What is this? Here I thought you would be happy when meeting your parents again. I don't even know how my parents in this world dead or alive. You even smiled when meeting your mother in that trepidation.'

I rubbed my head lightly.

"And" I indicated Saya carrying on his story.

"We also have a small argument"

"Can you say it more detail for me to understand."

After that, Saya explained all things happened to me.

I took the sip of coffee.

"What a mess" I shrugged.

"What do you think"

"I think some of you have little problems here" I placed the cup on the table and began wandering around the workshop.

"I will speak what I think. Don't take it too serious" I placed a hand on chin.

"First is Takashi. I see him as a stupid person and have some problem with the past. I don't know what his past but I heard Rei is his childhood's friend. So I think he has feelings for Rei but don't want to admit it. And he never considers his consequences of action. Like he let Shido sensei do anything but don't interfere it."

"In short, Takashi is stupid and he is very lucky to survive" I leaned against the window.

"Doesn't that's mean, Jean"

"Yes, it is but it's what I saw at him"

"At least, he is caring for his friends. You see that too right" I looked at Saya sitting on the chair.

Saya: …

"And Kohta. He has incredible intelligence on gun and good at using it. I know he is otaku with his love in gun. He will be useless if he don't have gun so of course he protects his pride. You shouldn't force him giving gun too much."

"Marikawa sensei. To be honest, she can't survive in this world but she is the only person who knows medic in our group"

"Rei shows that she is doing well although she has some problems with the person named Hisashi"

"Saeko also shows that she is doing very well in this time. She is skillful at sword and have a good adaption" I took a glance on laptop. It showed [63%].

"Finally you. You are too arrogant you know. Although I know you very care your friend, your attitude and way of talking irritates them. And don't criticize your parents like that. You know … everyone's family are currently unknown but your action makes them angry."

Saya: …

"Beside, I think you don't really hate your parents"

"I really hate my parents" Saya raised voice against me.

"No, you don't"

"If you really hate your parents that much, you will choose going out not staying here."

"You don't understand" she was now waving her arm randomly.

"I maybe not understand but I know your parents want the best thing for you. Your mom make me impressive about that." I hold her two waving hands.

"But …"

"Maybe you don't understand but I understand why they do that. I can assure you that your parents are ready to sacrifice themselves to save you in dangerous situation. That is their dream. They want to see you safe and sound"

Saya now stopped the conversation to take a moment thinking about this.

She still looked unsatisfied with my answer.

"Here Saya, Why don't we find what is the root of your problem"

She was only silent to my suggestion.

"I will take it as yes"

"Tell me why you hate your parents"

"Because they abandoned me" her voice was somewhat hesitated.

"why you think they do so"

"They want me to mature" her eyes glowed immediately.

"Exactly. I will tell you a secret that your mother only tell me"

I whispered into her ear.

"You understand me now"

"Yes I understand now"

"Good" I looked at laptop.

"Okay, Saya. Thanking for listening to my opinion. I'm deeply appreciated that. Not everyone patient enough to hear my opinion" I returned to my chair.

"So what you want me to do" Saya stood up and turned her back against me.

"For now, try to soothe their pressure. This is apocalypse, everyone is under heavy pressure"

"And also solving the refugee outside. Even I look at them also get complained" I pointed to the group of people outside.

"I will think the way. Beside, thank for talking to me"

"No problem. Before you go, take this"

She grabbed thing that I threw.

"This is" she now was dumbfounded.

"Yes, it's ammo. I told you that I can craft ammo as long as I have enough materials." I placed my legs on table.

"This is a breaking new, Jean" she said in excited manner.

"Yeah, I know right" I also smiled with her.

"I must inform this to everyone" her cheerful mood came back.

"Have fun" I waved my hand to send her.

With that, she dashed out my workshop.

"Jesh, problem pops out after problem" I exhaled heavily.

"Now let's go back what I did"

I looked at laptop. It said completed.

"Fresh, fresh" I lined all the micro-chip on table.

"Now this is a hard part" I looked at scalpel on table.

This is going to be painful for me. The part which I inserted those micro-chip in my body. To be more precisely, my nervous system. From legs, hands, chest without painkiller.

"Come on, I once overcame the worst" I placed scalpel before my wrist.

I took a deep breath and stabbed scalpel into my wrist.

"Aaahhhhhhhh"