Cutting Attachments

After Mark left, I realized if I can let go of my friendship with him I can get over Eric it's not like we were anything. So I went to my room and decided to call Sally. She didn't answer and it pissed me off but I thought of how she must be feeling so I let it slide.

I understand that she doesn't know but she isn't the only victim. Nonetheless she shouldn't ignore me without knowing all the facts. I blankly stare at the phone. I don't want to lose Sally as a friend but maybe Michelle is right. I need to stop being nice. It's obviously not getting me anywhere.

As soon as a minute passed I was getting a phone call from Sally. I let it ring 3 times and then answered.

"Hey" I answered meekly.

"Did Mark talk to you?" She anxiously asked. I guess she really didn't want anyone to know and it hurts that she didn't want me to know.

"Yea he was here and he told me everything. Why didn't you tell me you liked Eric? I thought we were all friends?" I say heartbroken.

"I'm sorry I was going to tell you but when I went looking for you I saw you and Eric talking and after I heard you ask him out I didn't want you to ever know. Don't worry I won't ever go after him you don't have to worry about me. I support you too together."

"What are you talking about? We aren't dating. He rejected me. He likes you." I tell her and realize she misunderstood everything.

"What? I thought you two were dating and I thought that's why I didn't see you the last couple of days. Everyone thinks you two are dating." Why does everyone think that? I ask myself.

"I don't know why people think that but that's not true we are nothing so if you want to get with him by all means it's alright you can go for it. I'm fine now Mark made me realize I can get over it." I say while getting angry thinking about Mark.

"No I'll never get with a guy who has hurt my friend, he rejected you and I'd rather have you as a friend than have him as a boyfriend." She said so confidently and makes me happy to know she cares about me.

"I appreciate the thought but I'm really fine you don't have to worry." I try to reassure her knowing that it's useless since she's so stubborn.

After a week of me gone I went back to school and everyone was staring at me weird like as if they're seeing a new student. I feel uncomfortable and walk to the library. I message Sally that I'm already in school and at the library but she never answered me.

Once the bell rang I went straight to class and the moment I walked in. The room went silent and everyone avoided looking at me but I can tell they were talking about me. So I sat on my usual seat at the back and asked my friend who sits beside me what's going on. She and I just made acquaintances but we get along so well people think we've been best friends since we were little.

"Holly what's going on why is everyone so quiet?" I whisper to her.

"First of all, where have you been, do you know how worried I was? I thought you transferred and left me all alone here." She said while looking down. "Oh, well while you were gone there was a rumor spreading about you. I don't believe those rumors because I know how kind and sweet you are. But…umm…people are saying you stole your best friend's boyfriend. I don't believe that I know you would never do that. But not a lot of people know you like I do so no one believed me." I was shocked when I heard that. Who the hell spread that dumb rumor.

"It's not true I actually got rejected by the guy I asked out because he likes my best friend, so I don't know who spread that fake rumor." I tell her looking around the class seeing everyone whispering to themselves.

"I believe you and I'll make sure no one talks bad about you in my watch." Holly said with such determination. Enough to make me smile. And forget and not care anymore for what people were saying about me.

During lunch I went to the usual spot to meet with Sally only to see her trying to explain to everyone that the rumors are not true and they shouldn't listen to it. I see Mark next to her and I get irritated hearing him talk.

"Sally, we know you're too nice to be mean to Luna but she's a bad person you shouldn't hang out with her or even talk to her. If you want, I can tell her that you no longer want to be friends with her." Mark said and i'm assuming trying to be her shining knight in armor. How ridiculous and pathetic I don't know why he just doesn't tell her he likes her. But at the same time I know Sally knows it's so obvious there is no way she doesn't know.

"No, Luna is my best friend and I don't want to lose her." She is on the verge of tears.

"Mark, why don't you mind your business? Sally and I are friends. The rumors that were spread are a lie. Why are you so sure it's the truth?" As I walk up to the group I yell so he can hear me.

"I was there Luna. I saw everything that happened. You can't say Sally and I are lying and didn't see you asking Eric out when Sally was about to do the same thing. You knew she liked him so you asked him out before she could." Mark said confidently and with a smug in his face

"I did ask him out and he rejected me. So you're not wrong but you aren't in the right either. So I suggest shutting up before speaking unless you have all the facts. And secondly I didn't know Sally liked him." I yell at him so angry that he keeps making the situation look worse. I then turn to Sally and tell her, " Also seeing Mark reminded me, I just want to let you know that we are no longer friends. Something happened that made me realize we were never a good match to be friends but it's okay if you still want to be friends with him Sally I won't hold it against you."

"What happened? When did this happen? What happened? Why aren't you guys friends anymore?" Sally asked even more anxious than she was before.

"Sally, Luna is such a jerk she didn't care about you when I told you you were hurt and heartbroken. She only cared about herself." Mark suddenly said and stared at me as if his word was more important than mine.

"You're such a freakin liar. I can't stand your sight anymore!" I yell at him. I'm so angry I want to slap him in front of everyone to get back to what he did to me but I shouldn't. So I calm down and look at how everyone is just looking at us as if they're ready for a show.

"Enough I don't want you guys to fight make up right now!" Sally yelled at us. Mark and I looked at each other but didn't say anything. "Luna forgive him, he's just looking out for me." The moment she said that I heard a snap in my head, how could she say that when she doesn't know everything.

"He slapped me and you want me to forgive him. No way. If you want to be friends with him, fine but don't talk to me when you're with him because I can't stand him." I say holding back tears. I'm so hurt that she said that.

"He slapped you?" Sally said in shock. She probably would never imagine he would do that. Because she's right he would never do that to her but to me it's a whole different story. I just stare at them both and my blood boils at the thought that she might still want to be friends with him and not me.

"Yes and pretty hard if you tell me it's actually pathetic that he raised a hand at me when I've done nothing wrong. It just shows what type of a sad man...no sad boy he is." I say with a smirk to piss him off and get on his nerves. Which works.

"I didn't mean to hit you, it was an accident, I was just so angry. It's not my fault that you pissed me off. Next time work on how you say things." He said trying to sound innocent which pisses me off and I just don't want to be here. I feel sick to my stomach.

"What an accident? Bullshit you hit me because you were angry because I told you the truth, and you couldn't handle it. You didn't even apologize. Which by the way I don't want from you I just want you to fuck off." I start getting so mad I can't control my language.

"Luna calm down, see he didn't mean it, can we try and get along." Sally said, sounding so pitiful, and almost convincing me to submit to her. But then I remembered what my sister said and she was right . I won't stand for this anymore. I guess this is where our friendship will end.

"I see who you choose to be with Sally. I'm sorry but I will no longer hangout with you or your friends, you're obviously not going to take my side and I don't care anymore you always take everyone's side other than mine." I tell her hurt and turn to walk away but before I could leave she grabs my arm. So I look at her and see she's crying.

"No please we can still be friends. I just don't want to lose either of you." As bad as I feel , I can't always bend to her will so I jerk my arm away from her and tell her in my softest voice.

"I don't mind talking with you every once in a while but don't expect me to be there for you anymore. You obviously have Mark and everyone else." I say looking around realizing no one took my side even though they have known me for a while. I now know what Michelle meant. I'm done being nice and I don't care what they think I'll be fine alone. Even though we all were friends none of them ever were there for me when I needed someone. So I'm not losing anyone important. As I was walking away I can hear them telling Sally how a bad friend I am, and you know what I don't care the fact that Sally doesn't take my side I really don't want to be by her side anymore.

After that the day seemed like a blur. I don't remember anything and meet up with Holly after school. I tell her everything that happened and she consoles me while walking home. As she walks me home I hear Sally calling me trying to get my attention but Holly put a bucket hat on me so no one sees me crying and told me to ignore her.

The next year came and Holly was going to start Independent Studies and so I decided to follow her and my parents were supportive so I was happy and enjoying everything. I didn't know but Sally was behind credits so she went to Independent studies too so we would occasionally bump into each other.

She would try and talk with me but I would only hold small talk with her so she would get sad and people would think the wrong idea and spread rumors that I was bullying her. What made it worse was that Sally never tried to correct the lies. So after that I started to just avoid her and if I couldn't I would be cold to her. Since I was already evil to people why not just go with it. I don't care anymore.