Chapter 4 : Appreciate Yourself Lea

"Mmm … Sorry Saturnus. Sorry already for Saturnus being annoyed. Saturnus if want to be angry with Lea, angry just no anything why. Origin doesn't stay away from Lea. Lea no on purpose talk like that same Saturnus, I mean Lea doesn't like Saturnus think Why ?" said Lea with a very voice nervous. She dares herself to talk to Saturnus no more angry with her. She no wants Saturnus the more difficult for reached. For is at as close as this with Saturnus not easy thing, need big struggle for me in being a position now.

"Indeed what am I think ?" asked Saturnus again in a tone that doesn't cold however no also soft. He no angry with Lea, same very no angry. For what is he angry? After all, what Lea said is true that's its existence. Possible everyone rates it like that, however, Saturnus permits next on his stance, and he no cares. his life why he must thinking what other people say about himself?

"Lea does their here meaning says Saturn talkative why. Only for Lea things like just now are really rare. Lea doesn't once see side Saturnus is like it. Usually, Saturnus has that right economical talk, however just now suddenly asks a lot. But Lea likes if Saturn I see ." Lea said in a tone of voice scared. She already very speaks with be careful, but permanent just she is scared that Saturnus will wrong understand again. Although only past the phone only, she could feel the tension between herself and Saturnus.

"That means you haven't known I more away Lea. The proof is not yet known all side good and bad in yourself me. I that much Lack of Lea. Much more perfect than me, but why are you just chasing me?" asked Saturnus with a little voice softening. He no has a heart which makes Lea sad, not knowing the clear reason he only does not have a heart. Lea is a cheerful girl, he no has a heart makes Lea gloomy because. Why does he so care this way about Lea's feelings?

"Even though Saturnus say I see, Lea doesn't care. For Lea, Saturnus very perfect. In Lea's eyes, Saturnus no have a deficiency in anything, just there are advantages in yourself Saturnus. But Lea likes Saturnus no because Saturnus is perfect." Lea said still with his stance. No matter how much people say that Saturnus that not completely man-fine, for her, Saturnus is the best at his heart. Her heart only there is name Saturnus one, no will anything else, no will once replaceable until any time.

"Then what do you see from me? if not because I'm handsome and perfect according to people and do you think? What made you come like that chasing me? I don't feel like doing whatever for you before." I asked Saturnus very want to know about this. Realize before he wants to know the reason for this, that time no once right. Possibly this is the right time the knowing Lea's secret about the figure himself in Lea's eyes.

"Saturnus of one se no once to do whatever for Lea before. Lea likes Saturnus because Saturnus is good. No know what again the reason is, but from early Lea see Saturnus that's Lea already direct like the same Saturnus. Saturnus that a special man in Lea's eyes." Lea said in a tone that was still doubtful. Why yes Saturnus suddenly discuss this? What destination does Saturnus want to know her feelings about? Is Saturnus already started open heart for her? But that no maybe, just a woman lucky who can get the opportunity. And Lea feels not woman lucky.

"I no special Lea, my normal don't be like the others. Lol that's too much adore I so what you see only kind I only," said Saturnus from across the phone. He does not think that Lea's answer is very simple and easy to understand for him. Saturnus no know what to do he feels now sad or happy. Sad because he no intends to repay Lea and feels happy because only this time there is a girl who likes him not because of his good looks. Lea is honest, good girl heart, smart, Lea is perfect in the eyes of men. However why he no can accept Lea's presence in his heart?

"Indeed why if Lea adore Saturnus? Is it not that Saturnus is no one object if Lea chases Saturnus? Lea just like Saturnuus, Lea or not once right disturb his life Saturnus? What Saturnus now will forbid Lea to like the same Saturnus? What Saturnus already changed thoughts?" Lea asked with an anxious feeling and fearful tone of voice if Saturnus forbid it for love it. Lea clutched their cell phone close as an expression of fear.

"No nothing Lea. Yes, I of course do one object if you chase constantly, as long as you don't disturb me, I'm fine. I know it is right to ban people like same me, you are free like same I no matter how big your feelings for me, but you too must be ready to accept the pain and denial from me because I do like so come you, Lea. I no will once change the mind, me no fickle man. But help appreciate a little yourself Lea, you're a girl. Not you should be chasing men who have clearly no like same you." said Saturnus with harsh words. He does not to mean hurt Lea, but Lea has to know that at anytime his heart will permanent frozen and not once be changed by water.

"But Lea likes the same Saturnus. Lea no can delete Lea's feelings. Lea's love already a long time ago Saturnus, just Saturnus, no Lea can turn away. Lea no once like the same person until like this, deep this, deep Lea's feelings for Saturnus. Lea must what let Saturnus also like with Lea?" asked Lea from across their voice-suppressed crying. As strong as Lea, if already faced with her feelings for Saturnus in a moment Lea will become weak. Saturnus is point weak.

"I do know Lea. I no can give you hope that doesn't certain can I make it happen. I am comfortable same you, but only as a friend, no more. I ask for sorry Lea. If nature I'm like this always makes you feel sick. I know there is an intention hurt your heart, but I also no can lie about feeling I alone. I do know what should you do so that I can like same you Lea. What is clear, I still want to focus chase ambition to make my parents happy first, I do not yet there is an intention for a date. Very again I ask for an excuse for me already rejected you many times. I please something moment later you can find a man who can love you sincerely as you love me. And you can delete feeling love you to me." said Saturnus with a soft voice and full of guilt against Lea. He is already very wicked because hurt a woman as good as Lea.