Chapter 21- Loneliness 

Jen pulls Lorrin near her and asks her to get ready to bed and moves quickly cleaning up her desserts and cloths, after sending her to shower Jen goes to shower and comes back in her comfy pajama printed with rabbits and Lorrin is already in bed in ready for bed. Lorrin had dinner with Andrew during their study break and Jen with her family, Jen's family always prioritize having dinner with family regardless, Jen's family was a warm and cozy one that Lorrin admired.

'Rabbit you are not bouncing around?' *Teasing* (Lorrin)

'Want me to' *Jen jumps right on Lorrin* (Jen)

'Damn you are heavy' *Joking* (Lorrin)

Jen just threw herself upon Lorrin who was laying down in the bed,

'Really?' *Sarcastic* (Jen)

'Wanna watch a movie?' (Lorrin)

'Yup, let's go for horror' *Chuckles* (Jen)

'I hate horror' (Lorrin)

'Romance?' *Grins* (Jen)

'No, fine with horror' *Sighs* (Lorrin)

Jen starts the movie and Lorrin rushes off for snacks, the movie starts and throughout the movie, Lorrin's screams and Jen's laugh is heard, the movie ends and it's quite late,

'I will turn off them' (Jen)

'Yeah' *Yawns* (Lorrin)

'Was it fun?' (Jen)

'Yes' (Lorrin)

'Are you okay?' *concerned* (Jen)

'I am, I am just letting off some steam and he also needs some lesson you know or he will waste away, this is the last favor and resentment towards him.' (Lorrin)

'If you say so' (Jen)

Jen pulls Lorrin closer and kisses her forehead and they both sleep in each other's embrace.

After she came back from The Williams, she rarely slept well, she almost never slept in bed, corridor, sofa, or under the window, was her sleeping space after getting ready for bed, she would just cry, feel horrified; Memories of Ann was a miracle and also a curse for Lorrin, she would walk around the house like a mad girl while tears would stream down her eyes, even a slight sound would horrify, her own step will remind her of the steps of those kidnappers, the sound of the glass clinking would remind her of her mother throwing a vase at her, the blessing she had of being able to live in the house where she lived with Ann was also a curse, she was never able to change the décor or anything, everything she used was still something kept there by Ann, every stuff would remind Lorrin of the words said by Ann,

'This is beautiful, isn't it?'

'This curtain would match your room.'

'This painting of followers resembles you.'

'I will always fill this vase with Flowers you like.'

'This snow globe is my present to you for being such a great person'

Tears would run down Lorrin's cheeks while she would gaze at all those object that was once was carefully maintained by Ann, every one of them had a meaning to it, there was one day when Lorrin took out the vase brought by Ann and threw it due to the anger but, soon she found herself kneeling down and crying like crazy while, collecting the pieces of the broken vase, she was much more broken than, that vase, she collected them and stored it in a glass container and kept it in the same place where the vase was, Lorrin would always clean up the house herself, she hated it when a cleaner would come and misplace even in the slightest inch, she lived alone in the big apartment, lonely night horrified her, every trauma would come to her, she would cry and always unable to sleep, there was once a day when she had the worst time, it was the day Lorrin found out about Max and Dally, after Ann's death Lorrin started to isolate herself, she had cut any connection with anyone, even in school she became unreachable and thus, was alone most of the time, Max was the only one who reached out to her and Dally the only friend but, finding out that, it was the end of it made her miserable, coming back home the memories and the traces made Lorrin miserable, she screamed, cried and threw stuff here and there; the furniture's were upside down, the glasses in the cabinet were shattered to pieces, the electronics worked no more; everything was on the floor after making such a big mess, she still cried as she walked around kicking stuff, her hands were bruised and her legs were cut; she walked into the shower and stayed there for far more than an hour, she was unable to sleep, she laid awake the whole time in the mess, she had created; she stood up, she was still wet, made her way to the only corner of the house she wasn't able to touch, beside the window in the bedroom a small table which contained the picture of Ann and herself and various small birthday gifts and stuff Ann had brought for her, it was all displayed beautifully in the corner, Lorrin raised her hand to destroy it but, it didn't move, sat down near it, there was a stream of tears flowing from Lorrin's eye, she fell asleep from exhaustion only to wake up from a nightmare, she stayed like that for more in the abyss for 3 days, then her family chauffer visited her, why the hell was she not attending the classes was their question, they didn't care what was going on with her, she needed to pull herself together alone; she pulled herself together, cleaned up everything and set them as it always had been, she tried changing it but, it felt empty, she placed her sleeping pills everywhere as to not loose herself, the things that meant lot to her but, broken by her found their places in a glass jar but, in the same place as before, Jen reached to her at her worst and gave her a hope that, she was not alone.

According to Jens Mom Waking up Jen is one of the toughest morning jobs and due to experience some Successful tactics are,

I- Screaming in her ears.

II- Snatching her blanket.

III- Turning of heater or A/C as required

IV- Throwing her off the bed

V- Giving her a bath in bed

VI- Give up

Following the order, Lorrin screamed on top of her lungs,

'Heyyyyy!!!! wake up!!!' *Screams* (Lorrin)

Jen just squirms on the bed with not much response,

Time for the next attack as the time to recover shouldn't be given, Lorrin Pulls Jens Blanket, even though Jen was sleeping her grip was tight enough to make Lorrin struggle for quite a while, and again Jen just,

'Mom stop troubling'- is what she said

Lorrin turned off the heater and went out, taking Jen's blanket with her, after a few minutes, Jen came out of the bedroom straight to the kitchen, seeing Jen awake Lorrin felt proud and continued making a snack breakfast while Jen grumbled about being woken up early,

Jen stared at Lorrin for a few min it was clear that last night, Lorrin had the best sleep in a while,

'Wanna go on a date?' (Jen)*looking forward to it*